I keep my eyes on Tracey as she holds the joint to her lips and takes a long drag. She let's out a long, thick cloud of smoke from between her lips.
I sit across from her on her bed.
And I blurt out the question "do you want to have dinner at my house?"
She stares at me in shock and then asks "like a date?"
I look around as if searching for an escape "I guess, except you'll see my parents."
She thinks about it "what if I go to your house and we watch a movie together and I also meet your parents?"
"Is that what you want to do?"
"Well yeah" she stands up "I have to get dressed proper for our date...and your parents."
"You aren't nervous?"
She makes a face "uh no" she says "if they are like you then what do I have to be nervous about?" She blows me a kiss and goes into her walk in closet.
I stand up and lean against the door frame of the closet, looking at her. "Wear something that covers up everything" I tell her
She scuffs and grabs a pair of jeans and a nice black long sleeved top. "I would only show my goods to you, ace...no one else" she sides her chest along my side as she passes me.
I smile and turn around.
She gets undressed right in front of me.
I turn my head away instantly.
"What?" She asks, getting dressed "its not like you'll never see me naked. And its just like wearing a bikini. Get over it"
Slowly I turn my head back to her. Looking at her lacy black painties and bra. She pulls her jeans on and then her top. She tucks her black hair behind her ear. "You like it?" She wiggles her butt and then slaps her hips before walking out her door "come on!"
"Mom, dad, this is Tracey" I say as she holds onto my arm with her hands "my-"
"Girlfriend" Tracey says, cutting me off. "Its very nice to meet you both"
They give her a warm smile "you too, Tracey"
My dad looks her up and down and then gives me thumbs up when she isn't looking. I narrow my eyes and shoo him away.
"We're going up to my room" I tell them and lead her away from them.
"They're cute" trace says
"Girlfriend?" I ask "you aren't my girlfriend" I tell her
She sits on my bed and looks at her hands "you seemed to like it, the way your face lit up"
I shake my head and put a movie in my laptop, setting it between us.
"What is this" she asks
"Scarface" I tell her "the ultimate gangster movie. It'll go down history, I swear it. Our kids, kids will be watching this movie."
She laughs "It can't be that good"
"Oh but it can" I tell her "it really can. Starred by Al Pacino. Any movie he is in is the shit. When he released this movie... Man, the whole world went bazerk over it."
"Well see"
I smile over at her "you gotta trust me on this one, baby. You ain't ever gunna see anything like it."
Her blue eyes stare into my brown ones "sure"
I press play and settle back against the head board of the bed.
"Every man wants to be just like him" I tell her, staring at the screen "most famous line in the world. "Say hello to my Lil friend"."
"That's where that came from?"
"Yeah" I say "see what I'm sayin? Go around and you'll notice that half the shit people say is a line from a famous movie, this being one of them." I nod "I mean there are shirts, posters, hats being made dedicated to this movie. There are houses being made dedicated to Al Pacino's house in this movie" I sigh "if this isn't a great movie then I don't know what a great movie is. He makes good guys wanna be bad."
"Like you?"
"Huh?"
"Your a good guy" she says "as in you do everything right, no mistakes."
I scuff "I've made mistakes, Tracey"
"Like what?"
I glance at her "well I was sent to juvie once" she stares at me "I had a really bad temper when I was fifteen. My algebra teacher was terrible. She kept giving me detentions and I got tired of it." I shake my head in memory "so I threw a desk at her and it broke her neck. Paralyzed her from the waist down"
She gasps "damn" then she laughs "and here I was thinking your the one for me"
I chuckle "the one for you? Nah, I'm too good for you"
She gasps and slaps my arm playfully "hey!"
I laugh and take her hand in mine. I lace my fingers through hers. She scoots closer to me and snuggles up against my chest.
I lick my lips and stare down at her.
"Do you want me to be your girlfriend?" She whispers
"Well I sure don't want you to be just my friend" I answer
She laughs "we could be friends with benefits"
I shake my head "I don't like sharing"
She leans up so that our lips are almost touching "good because you don't have to"
Our lips touch and I can't help the groan that escapes the back of my throat. I feel her smile against me. Parting her lips with my own, I let my tongue enter her mouth.
I swril my tongue around the stud on her tongue and she licks my bottom lip with it. I feel her lip rings against my own lip.
She sits up and straddles my lap, putting her arms around my neck as I rest mine on her thighs.
I let my fingers trace up her skin on her waist.
We pull back, out of breath.
"I need to know something" she says "do you like Sammy?"
That catches he's me off guard "what? No"
She nods "okay"
She lays down on her side, facing me. I lqy down and face her. "Are you staying here tonight?" I ask her
"Is that okay?"
"Yes" I kiss her neck and put my arm over her waist.
She falls asleep soon after the movie is over and I sit up in my bed. Not able to go to sleep.
I look out my window and I can see right through Sammy's. She sits on her bed, her knees drawn up to her chest and she stares at nothing.
What can you do when you are blind? You can't watch movies or play games. Is she always this lonely?
She wipes at her eyes and I see her body shake from her sniffles.
I want to go over there and help her so badly. I just want to hold her. But I know I can't leave Tracey.
So I just watch her like that until she falls asleep, making sure she doesn't hurt herself.
*****
At school I have Tracey in my arm as we walk down the hall.
Johnny looks at us "when did this happen?"
"The day before yesterday" she answers
"There were romours about it but I didn't believe it"
"Already?" I ask "seriously? New travels fast around here"
"Sure does" he shakes his head "I don't know why you chose him though. He's a good guy and you should want a bad boy. And I'm all bad, baby"
"Don't get ahead of yourself" I say to him
"Yeah" Tracey agrees with a smirk
Johnny points to the office. I see Sammy trying to find the door knob but can't. She finally gives up and just stands there.
"I'll be back"
I jog over to her
"Ace" she says "ace?"
I take her hand "I'm here" I assure her "I'm here"
She smiles and sighs "I thought you would come. I must have looked so stupid. I never go to the office so I'm not used to how it feels or anything."
"Your fine" I tell her and pull her towards me. I guide her hand along the wall and then to the door frame. She stares blankly, feeling it. She moves her hand along the frame and then I let her touch the doors window.
"Can you feel it?" I ask her
She nods and smiles, now putting her hand on the door knob "thank you"
"Any time" I let out a breath "why were you crying so much last night?"
She scrunches up her face "how did you know I was crying"
I blush "well I looked out my window for the first time and I realized that your window is right across from mine. Its so close that I could just climb out of my window and go right into yours."
She laughs "you should do that one day."
"I will"
"I was crying because my parents want me to go to councling again and I hated it the first time." She says "I just don't want to go"
"I wish I could help"
"You are helping" she tells me "your being there for me." She reaches out a hand "can I touch you?"
"Yes"
"I just want to feel what you look like today"
She puts her hands on my chest and steps forward, closer than she thinks to me. She takes the fabric of my shirt between her fingers. "Flannel shirt" she smiles and laughs "I wouldn't think you would be the type to wear flannel but okay"
Her hand drifts down to touch my pants and I quickly grab it and change her direction with it, putting it on my hip.
She blushes "sorry" she feels the fabric of my jeans and says "just plain jeans. With a hole in the knee"
"How did you know there was a hole in the knee?"
"Lucky guess" she smiles and lifts her hand to my head. "Your hair is always messy isn't it?"
"I don't know what to do with it" I admit
She giggles "I can't see it but I like it"
Tracey comes towards us "come on, baby, we can't be late for class a third time"
Sammy drops her hand and makes a confused face
"I'll be there in a second" I tell her before giving her hip a soft shove.
She walks back away
"You and Tracey?" Sammy asks "I didn't really believe that rumor."
"It was bound to happen" I admit
She nods and says "what do I look like, ace?"
"What do you mean?"
She stares up at me "am I pretty?"
My mouth gapes open "your beautiful, Sammy"
She blushes "really?"
"Of course. You have no idea how beautiful you are"
She bites her lip "thank you"
"There's a party tonight" I begin "do you want to go with me?"
"What about Tracey?"
"She will be fine with it. Its not a date or anything. I just want you to have fun"
She shakes her head "no one will want me there"
"I doubt that"
"Everyone said I was lying to get attention when I couldnt get the boys convicted of raping me. They made fun of me for months when it dies off, no one talked to me"
"Baby" I say "no one is going to even think about that. There is always a new story going around in high school. First person who says anything out of line gets punched in the jaw so I doubt they will"
She thinks about it "I'll only go if you dont leave my side"
"Deal"
"Okay" she smiles "you better get to your girlfriend. She seems to be getting upset"
"How do you know?"
"When you go blind, your other senses get way better"
I smile "I'll see you later. I'll pick you up"
She nods "okay"
She opens the office door and walks in.
"Why was she touching you like that?" Johnny asks me
"She says she likes to know what I look like that day" I answer
"And she can do that by touching you?" Tracey asks
"Yeah, she has been practicing" I tell them "and I'm taking her to the party tonight"
"What?!" Tracey almost yells
"She never has any fun!" I protest "she is blind for god sakes! She can't do anything without someone there at all times! What would you feel like if you couldn't see?!"
She sighs "fine. I'll just go with johnny"
He makes a face "I don't think so, baby, I have my own plans"
She makes a dismissive sound and stomps away
"Damn" johnny says with a laugh "you crushin on two girls?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You can't can't bullshit a bullshitter, man" he says "I see how you look at her and how she looks at you." He shrugs "y'all will be together in the end"
"I'm her friend" I tell, him walking away
"I hope you mean friends with benefits because that would be way more exciting!"
He yells after me
I roll my eyes
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