Third Person POV
It's been a dreadful five minutes of silence between the two. V had finally confessed everything from that night five years ago.
He wasn't sure how Jisoo is taking it. He continued to observe her, he watched the way Jisoo's eyes never left the ground and her body stayed still as a statue.
"Bullshit."
"Sorry what-" V asked.
"Bullshit!" Jisoo now amplified her volume.
Yes. This was it, this was exactly what V had imagined how Jisoo would react — when she would first lay eyes on him.
But no, he didn't expect this type of reaction once she knew the truth.
A hopeful part of him imagined that she would understand, that everything will make sense, and that she'd take him back into her arms.
"This is all bullshit! You were a fucking coward!" Jisoo's voice continues to rise in octaves, not minding her neighbours.
"You really expect that I would feel thankful that you did all this for me? So I can achieve my dreams? You want me to thank you for breaking my heart and losing every trust I ever had in people merely because of my career?"
"It's not that-" V tried to reason, but Jisoo continued to speak.
"Did you ever consider; all of this, all this fame... that I wanted you here? By my side to experience it all?"
"I spent years protecting my heart, because I was taught that love was just nothing but a distraction. Then you came, you knocked my walls down, one by one. I trusted you, and opened my heart to you..." Jisoo's voice cracked at the last sentence.
"You broke me. You shattered me, V."
Pain of memories and emotions that she felt five years ago, a painful memory she tried so hard to forget, all come spewing within her.
"After you, I no longer had the courage to love again. All because of the pain, the pain you put me through. I don't know if I could survive if it happens again."
V's heart clenched, he too was in pain. It hurt him knowing damn well the pain he caused her.
He wanted to walk towards her and wipe those tears away, the tears he knows caused by him and his decisions, but he knew can't. He has no right.
"I fucking knew my priorities V, I would have never given up ballet to be with you, because I knew my family needed me to succeed. But I trusted you and our relationship, that I could have achieved all of this with having you by my side." Jisoo continues, she was now a mess, her makeup has smudged off and her hair is all dishevelled.
"Have you to support me, have your shoulder to cry on, and when I felt like nothing, I would've had you, my constant person who held it down. My safe haven."
"But no, you left me." Jisoo finishes as she gasps for more air.
"Jisoo, I did this for you! I did this because I loved you, I still love you!" V's veins around his neck became apparent as his voice grew louder.
Jisoo continues to mess her hair, she wanted to throw something, she wanted to destroy something. She needed to release all the emotions that were building up inside her.
"V how dumb do you think I am?!" Jisoo yelled back.
"How can you possibly let me believe all of this when I saw you, I saw you and Jennie with my own two eyes!"
"Jennie? That was the first time I saw her that night, she was just another of those fans who were trying to get into my pants!" It was finally V's chance to further explain this misunderstanding.
"I knew if I told you BoA approached me, you would have been furious, you might have done worse in your auditions!"
"Would you have forgiven me if you had failed your auditions because you were too busy hanging out with me?!"
"That's why I believed her. I believed that I was hindering you from your career. Therefore, I needed to do something that would ensure you wouldn't try to get back with me..."
"I had to hurt you in the worst way possible." V looks down, recalling all his actions from the past, made him realize how much he's in the wrong.
"I- I couldn't possibly live knowing I took away the important thing in your life, ballet."
Jisoo's vision blurred further, as a river of tears continued to flow from her eyes refusing to stop.
"V you should've told me. You should've come to me and asked how I felt. But you didn't."
"It's cause you didn't believe in me... I could've made it. With you, I could've reached all of this."
"But you lacked faith in me and especially in us." Jisoo looked at V who was no longer looking at her.
Her chest continues to rise and retire rapidly as she pants for more oxygen.
Jisoo needed to calm herself. She needed to get her head straight so that she won't say things she'll regret.
"Fuck!" Jisoo yelled, so much for calming herself down.
"What are we even doing right now V? Fuck I shouldn't even be with you right now. You have a fricking girlfriend!" Jisoo reminded V, but mainly herself.
"No Jisoo, those articles are all a lie. I'm not with her. I was never with her." V emphasized.
"The agency just thinks it's for the best if I was in a relationship with her since the fans liked the idea of us together." The more he spoke, the more he's reminded of how much his current life is a mess.
"Fuck I have never even slept with her. I tried. But she wasn't you Jisoo. She didn't smell like you, smile or laugh like you, and loved like you..."
"You taught me how to love Jisoo! I was so afraid of loving because of the pain and trauma my parents put me through during their divorce. They made me hate the thought of marriage, love, family..."
"Fuck I even hated my name because of them. I didn't want any trace of my parents lingering in me."
"But you... you made it all make sense. You made me realize the importance of love, you made me want to start a family, you made me believe in a future."
"You were the only person on my mind these past years. You kept me sane Jisoo."
V was spilling all of his heart's content. He no longer had anything to lose. He wanted to say everything he wanted to tell her these past years, he wanted to have no regrets from tonight.
"Well I'm sorry V. I can't say the same about you. I pushed you furthest in my mind, because you were nothing but a painful memory." Jisoo responded, now she was back to her calm state.
At this point Jisoo was numb. She no longer felt her heart clenching in pain, her breathing has come to normal, and her tears have paused.
She remains calm as she accepts the conclusion for this night...
Jisoo looks at V's broken state. She wanted to hug him, and tell him it's okay, but it's not. What's done has been done.
"You know, If you had told me this five years ago I may have crawled back to you like the fool I was, but V that was a long time ago..."
"But thank you for telling me. Now I no longer have to be clouded by dark thoughts, wondering why I was never enough or why my love wasn't enough for you to stay..."
"Thank you for making me realize that I wasn't the problem. I was enough, I am enough."
"Goodbye, V." Jisoo finished.
V felt as if his heart had been ripped apart from him, unsteady steps were made towards Jisoo.
This was his last plea,
He grabbed her by the hands and lowered his height to match her eye level.
"Please Jisoo, I love you. Please just this once-" he begs with the energy left in him.
"I'm sorry V. It's too late."
the end
A/N: jk see you next chapter, which is our actual last chapter 🙈!!!! Lmk ur thoughts bc I'm rlly curious & again ty for all ur love and support🥺!