It started with a carousel

He is mine.

I was sore. Really sore. Ryan was really gentle for awhile then he got rough.

I felt the bed move and Ryan leaned over me. " You okay?"

I nodded.

He kissed me. " come on let's make breakfast."

I got up and we both went downstairs to make pancakes. We acted silly at first then we got serious.

He made me feel amazing. I was so happy he was here with me and I wasn't alone. Being Alone made me sad.

After we ate, we just stayed in bed and cuddled. We also did other things but still mainly cuddled.

Ryan's phone was buzzing and he checked it.

He groaned and looked at me. " baby. I got to go. My dad wants to talk to me."

I whined. " No baby. Please tell him you can't come right now. I want you to stay with me."

He smiled and kissed my head. " I won't be long."

I frowned and he laughed and put his clothes on. He walked out and closed the door.

I decided to get a nap in cause I was really tired from all the sex we had.

I closed my eyes and in minutes I was asleep.

When I woke up Ryan still wasn't back. I texted him and called and he wasn't answering me.

I got up and got dressed just in case someone came.

I waited all day for him to come in or even call. He never did.

He always does this to me. Always.

My phone buzzed. It was Lina and Rachel saying goodnight. I texted them back to let them know I was okay.

I tried doing different things to stay awake but it was 4:30am. Ryan's normally back and we're sleeping.

Instead I'm up and worried that he's not okay. I grabbed a blanket and curled in a ball on the couch.

I fell asleep minutes later.