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~Colbys POV~

What have I done...like actually what the fuck have I done, we at least called and text Sam 20 times no response. "Oh fuck no... no no" kat said all of a sudden. "What.." I looked at her. "Sam suffers suicidal thoughts and p-panic attacks" she looked at all of us in terror. My heart dropped, "let's fucking go!" I yelled as I rushed to the car. The others ran to the car and got in, I got in the passenger seat not even bothering to buckle.

She's started the car quickly and speed to sams house, my hands were shaky and my heart was beating fast. "Please be okay sam..." I said quietly to myself. Once we pulled in we just rushed inside yelling Sams name, "Sam!" I yelled and tears were leaving my eyes. I rushed up stairs and tried to open sams door but it was lock. "Sam please open the door!" I said trying to bang it open with my shoulder. No response, suddenly I used all my strength and busted the door opened, the others came rushing upstairs.

I walked in to see Sam in the corner shaking to death, "Sam!" I yelled as I took him in my arms. "N-no.." he said trying to push me away but I held onto him. "Sam baby listen to my heart beat" I said to himself I held in in my lap. His breathing was uneven, "listen to my heart beat Sammy not the thought push them away I'm right here" I said holding him closer to me.

Soon his breathing was back to normal, his body soften. His face was red from crying and his eyes were blood shot red, "we will go get some stuff to help you Sammy okay.." Jake said. Sam nodded softly, Jake and the others left. "Oh my god I'm so sorry Sam I shouldn't have done this shit to you I ignored you I even fucking kiss sandy I am a complete ass hole Sam..I should've known better way much fucking better" I said. "S-stop" Sam all of a sudden said.

He pulled away so we were face to face, "I deserved it I-I was with Ethan and I promised you I would never leaves you it's m-my fault.." he said. "Oh no no Sammy it's not you fault never it's my stupid jealous ass fault please stay with me I'm so so sorry.." I said taking a hold on his hands. "Please.. please forgive me Sam.." said said looking into his blue crystal eyes. He gave me a soft smile and nodded, I smiled back and pulled him into a hug. I held him close to scared that I was going to lose him.. no I can't lose Sam he's everything I have.

"Can we go to bed.." he mumbled. "Sure Sammy come here" I said picking him up and walking to his bed and laying down with him. Suddenly he got up and laid on my chest, I smiled and wrapped my arm around his waist, his head tucked on my neck as he feel asleep. I played with his hair softly as he laid on me asleep, I soon felt my eyes get heavy.

I soon closed my eyes and fell asleep while holding Sam in my arms.

~The next day~

I moved my arm to wrap around Sam when I did my hands fell right back on my empty chest. I shot awake and sat up, "Sam!" I yelled. I quickly got up and ran out of his bed, "Sam!" I cried. "Colby?" I turned around to see Sam eating cereal, "oh thank god" I wrapped my arms around him. "Colbear hey hey what's wrong" he said placing down his cereal and hugging me. "I thought you died I-or left me or forgo-" I was hushed by Sam. "Colby I'm fine I'm not leaving you I promise" he said putting his bowl in the sink.

"Come on let's go back and laid down besides no one up anyways" he said taking my hand. I nodded slowly and walked up with him, I walked in his room and sat on his bed. He came and crawled on my lap, I wrapped my arms around his waist and just held him. "I'm right here colbs I'm not leaving you" he said running his fingers through my hair. I smiled I was happy maybe to happy.. I let a tear slid down my eyes as I held him tighter. "Aw colby" he smiled and whipped my tears. "What ever happend when you were asleep I'm right here.. I'm okay from last night I promise.." he said cupping my cheeks. "Y-yea but I literally made you have a panic attack.." I looked up at him.

"Colby you didn't I just get over whelmed at a lot of things but you thinking I don't care for you anymore.. ha I love you colby with all my heart" what he said really made me hold onto him closer.