My Body Is Not For Your Pleasure

My body is not for your pleasure
My body is mine
Why is it a crime for my body to be mine?
Why am I called a leech?
Why can't I speak?
Why am I silenced when I try to speak?
My body is supposed to be mine
My body has always supposed to have been mine
Why is it such a crime?
No never means no
They say it does but it never does
Stop never means stop
Self-control isn't a thing
But is it my fault?
If I wear a sweater and some sweatpants down the street in the daytime do you think my body then becomes mine?
If I wear a short dress out at midnight and I put spandex on because I have to be cautious that some men choose to believe that my body is not mine
Is it any different than the sweater?
What makes it so different?
I am scared still,
In a sweater and a dress
It doesn't matter what I wear
I had pants and a shirt on that day, nothing revealing
My body was still vandalized
It goes to show it doesn't matter what I wear, it doesn't matter what time I wear it
My body will never be seen as mine
I'll never understand it
Why is it a crime for my body to mine?
I clean it, I clothe it, I make sure it gets the proper amount of sleep, my body is alive because of me, I am alive because of me
Why is that not enough for you to see that my body belongs to me?
My body belongs to me and only me
Why can't you see?
Why do you continue when tears roll down my cheek?
Why do you continue when I scream and tell you to get off of me?
Why?
I'll never understand it
Why does my body not belong to me?
Why does no never mean no?
Why does stop never mean stop?
I am weak I can't fight you off of me
But you like that
You like to feel in control
That's why you continue
You continue when the only thing "wet" on me is the tears on my cheek
No respect for me
You rip me and I bleed
I hurt
I cry
Why doesn't my body belong to me?
Why do I have to wait a week to see if you gave something to me?
Why don't I feel better when I learn nothing has been given to me?
Is it because something has been taken from me?
My dignity?
My speech?
My self-respect?
My body is not for your pleasure
My body is for me and only me
My body does not respond to threats
You will never see me "wet"
Stop abusing me it's a crime you see
My body belongs to me and only me unless I give you consent do you see?
Do not hurt me
Just because my body belongs to me
Because you buy me food and you take me out why do you feel as if consent is given to you?
Why do I have to become a prostitute because you bought me food?
Why is it only then it's such a crime when I tell you no
Why do you get mad?
You think things about me that aren't true
Just because my body is not for your pleasure after you buy me food?
I am not a prostitute
I can not be paid for my body to belong to you
I can not be paid for my body to be used
My body is mine in any circumstance
My body belongs to me at all times
Don't you see?
My body is mine and only mine unless I permit you to pleasure me
I will say it a million times if it gets you to see,
That my body belongs to me
It is not a crime for my body to belong to me
Stop hurting me for one-sided self-pleasure, please
Why do I have to say no a million times for you to get off of me?
That is attempted rape
Don't you see?
Just because you didn't do anything to me, doesn't mean you did not trigger me
I still cry when I think about the time that I had to say no a million times for you to get off me
My body does not belong to you, It belongs to me
My body should not be harmed for your pleasure
My body is mine
My body is for me
If I choose for you to pleasure me you will see
I will not cry
I will not tell you no
I will not tell you to stop
Why can't you see consent?
Is it because you choose to ignore the facts?
That I do not want you
Doesn't my body say enough?
She is dry
No pleasure is felt
Why continue when you see my body doesn't respond to danger
I will never understand it
Why do you not feel like my body belongs to me?
Why do you have to take away my dignity?
I will never let another man touch me
Don't you see how fucked up you made me?
Why don't you respond to my cries and my screams?
Why don't you respond when I tell you to get off of me?
Do I have to scream that my body belongs to me and only me?
Why can't you control yourself around me?
No signs are given
No consent is given
Why must you feel the need to torture me?
Your kisses are not wanted
Your body and my body together is not wanted
I cry in the shower trying to get rid of any part of you in me
Why has this become my life?
Why with any individual do I have to say no a million times?
Just because I'm curvaceous does not give you the right to violate me
That is not a sign of consent in any way shape or form don't you see?
My body's curves belong to me and only me
Just because the way my clothes fit on me does not mean a thing
Stop objectifying me
I am not an object
I am not a sex toy
I have never given you consent
If I was thin do you think that would make a difference?
My body will never belong to me thin or curved
It makes no difference
The clothes I wear are not a sign of consent
The way I wear my clothes is not a sign of consent
My body does not want you unless I do
Stop abusing me
My body is not for your pleasure
My body is mine and only mine
You don't ever get the right to harm me
Or make me feel like a thing
Stop objectifying me
My body belongs to me and only me
Don't you see?
My body is mine and only mine
Listen to me
If consent is not given do not hurt me
I am not for your pleasure
You do not get the right to abuse me
This is my body and it belongs to me