meland

let's beggin

Hi you are probably wondering who am i ? or what the argoment of the book ?, well i'm going to let you answer that so welome meland.

i'm anonymus , someone who is  17 years old leaving in planet and time where they are  not suppost to be , don't get me wrong i'm not a time-traveller or an allien , i'm exacly like you nothing special.well let's start from the begging i was born in family of 4 people , my mum and my dad and my brother all normal you would say , not really my dad and mum don't love each other they never even tried i mean i understand , you would ask so how they got married and had you and your sibling well my mum lived in a poor family she tried everything to save herself and the situation but she faild her main goal was to study and bacome indepent ,well as i said she faild cause her family couldn't afford school that's when my mum started hating on people in her life starting from my dad . you would ask why? when my mum couldn't study her family decided it's better for her to get married because they didn't have money enough to mantain her so they planned an arranged marriege they didn't care much about who is my dad or his work , they cared only that she going away from home . my mum never liked my dad and the same for him they were both obligated to get married my mum for family decision and my dad  for descipline . well after they did get married they had the wonderful idea to have kids even if my mum was reciving domestic violence nice you would say well no it's not after my brother was born everything seem to become normal and calm with some succes in work for my dad and some peace for my mum till i was born to make it easy for you to understand the situation  they day and time i was born they were hailstorm, snow, rain, lightning and hurricanes so now i will let you be the judge. after i was born everyone got sick and none could take care of me funny right , after they recovered  i spended all my time with my mum and my brother from when i was 4/5 years old till i was 8 and meeted my dad ( he was away for work ) everything fine till now as you see well i didn't mantion that my dad came back only to take us with him cause at the time there was a revulation in my country with disorgantion of the whole country with no police so more crime and no rules yes ,it was like a jungle .my dad came back and took as to another country which bacome my second home land , me and my dad never had a real relation cause he was too busy yelling at my mum for every little thing with a very hard languege not the type you say infront of kids i was always scared of him even now i still do . he was very agressive and violant i still can recall night and day of me setting under the table crossing my body and crying in silence cause if i did he wil slap me you ask your self how i know my brother always to defend my mum or cry loud and he will beat him leaving his whole body with bruses and he wil tell you not to tell anyone and if they ask say you fall , well in those nigh and days we will be hiding under the table while crying and scared of him while he yells at my mum how much of a bitch she is for saving money for food and not giving him money to buy cigaretes . if you tough this the worst you are wrong let contiune if i didn't do what he asked me , i wil get beat up till one day where i say my whole life going down after my grandpa died the person that rasied me truelly loved me and showed me how i should be tried and who  am i. One time i kissed my cousine not because i loved her sexually but because i loved her as sister when my parent sawm kissing her they tough i was gay and their reaction was taking me home closing me in a dark room wih no food for a whole week and at saturday they took me to the cemetiry and tried to killing me and   i saw even my tomboston with my name you would ask yourself how i am still alive well they killed my soul with their offenses and infidelity and disbelief i wish they killed me cause inside i was already dead inside and they killed even the little star of brightness  i had they killed also  till i become a dead soul inside a dead body where living become dying cause my home my school become my prison, i wasn't allowed to talk about my abuses or go outside , when i ever i go to school my dad would follow me like a spy and when every he saw me happy or with a boy he will beat me execpt the effect that i was never happy only thing i used to have some kind friends (boys) cause usualy i didn't have any cause i couldn't spend time with them cause i was not allowed to go visit them or hang with them at my home , i was in a prison made by my parents were i killed my soul so i wouldn't feel pain anyome .................. the story it's not finished.