Still In The Dark | BILLIE EILISH

part 30

"aw poor baby" she teased pecking my lips

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30 minutes till Arshtar...

Billie lay on my chest as I played with her hair. Today is really just a lazy day we have nothing planned but I seem to enjoy these days more than others. Just here with my boy and my girl. I cant wait to marry her

I groaned as my phone started to ring. Bricker.

"what the fuckkkk do you wanttttt"

"trig please just come quick somethings happened with kat and i don't know what to do she isn't moving and-"

I heard something unusual in the background. Wait was that a trigger?

"who's with you? bricker what happened just calm down ple-"

"no time to explain just get here she's bleeding.. a lot yeah oh my god" he spoke not sounding himself "i'm sorry" he whispered before ending the call

Somethings not right

"what happened" Billie asked worryingly

"i- i don't know? bricker is in trouble"

"should we bring nitro?" she asked

"yes"

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10 minutes till Arshtar...

I was driving down Bricker road getting more and more anxious and i could tell Billie was too. I laced our fingers together giving her a light squeeze for comfort.

We passed some oddly familiar looking black vans but didn't take nothing of it. The atmosphere was tense and weird it just didn't feel right

But that's when it all clicked

I slam down on the breaks causing Billie to let out a little scream before she turned to face me

"it's a trap" i mumbled

"w-what do you mean"

"those vans... it's arshtar they have bricker and are using him to get me i bet you right now kat isn't even there he even whispered he was sorry before ending the phone call"

"so what do we do"

"we do nothing"

"i- i don't understand" she almost whispered

"you're not coming with me Billie you will die"

"i'm not letting you go alone" she argued

"i have nitro" i smiled

"NO TRIG i love you okay? we are not doing this again where i have to explain to you how much i fuckin care about you and why i choose you"

"why does it bother you so much with what i do with my life Bil? i'm sorry to break it to you but you made the wrong fucking choice caring for me because that shit should've ended after i 'died' wait no guess what Billie i didn't even fucking die i left you and i was so fucking stupid to come into your life to fuck you up and ruin it even more" i said coldly

Deep down i knew i was right, i didn't want to be and she knew i was right too. Did i mean to say all that? fuck no but i know it's for the best because im not going to see her ever again

"because i love you" she cried "but yeah trig you're right you coming back into my life after making me believe you were dead for 2 years did fuck me up but i'm not going to sit here and ignore my love you for, it doesn't change how much i love you it never changed how much i love you what you do with your life bothers me because i care about you.. so fucking much i don't want you doing this alone" she cried again

i kissed billies head and handed her the keys smiling even if i was mentally dying inside it felt like someone had ripped my heart out but i had ignored it for her

"you know that i won't let you come with me" i sighed "i love you.. so much" i kissed her lips wiping her tears away before getting out the car with nitro. We started walking a bit before I heard the car door open knowing Billie must be switching seats. I stopped in my track waiting to see if Billie would say anything, but she didn't. As I carried on walking I began to hear her whimper again but I didn't turn around, because if I did I would've ran right back to her

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2 minutes till Arshtar

I knocked on the door not really knowing what to expect. To my surprise it was already open and I stepped inside nitro by my side just the like 2 years ago. It was like nothing had changed.

"oh fuck" I startled as I saw Bricker tied to a chair

"why the fuck did you come" he yelled "it's a fucking trap you're gona-"

"trig" a voice boomed and Nitro barked

Before I could even react I was being forced onto the floor and a loud gunshot was heard followed by a whimper but not any whimper.. a dogs whimper

I looked up to see Nitro bleeding out

"NO" I screamed trying to free myself

"hurts doesn't it" a voice said "seeing something you love get taken away from you just like that"

"FUCK OFF" I yelled but was cut off by another gun shot

I knew where it had went.. and soon enough my baby was dead...

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"so you gona kill me then huh?" I shouted into the empty room I was kept it

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the fact this took 4 hours to write says something... i was uh distracted anyways my brain is still fucked and i don't know i felt like i had to give yous something so i did and this mothafucka is long

you didn't expect trig to stay free forever did you?

sorry if there's mistakes