Loving My Enemy

Chapter 21

"It was such a great pleasure to have you here, Sab. I mean, lahat ng tv shows dito ay nagkakagulo para lang makakuha ng interview sa'yo but then you chose us. You choose to guest in our show and thank you so much for that."

Napangiti na lamang ako sa sinabi niya at nagtawanan din ang mga audience.

"So what are your plans now? I mean, do you have any plans on going back to New York?"

I look at the audience and saw him staring at me kaya naman nag-iwas ako ng tingin sa kanya.

"I will. I will definitely go back but I will always be at my home," nakangiting sabi ko pero mukhang naguluhan naman ito sa sinabi ko.

"Meaning?"

Nilingon ko ulit ang nakasimangot na mukha niya ngayon at ngumiti. Pero nawala lahat iyon nang makita ang malalagkit na tingin sa kanya ng mga babaeng nasa paligid niya.

"I'm here to stay. I will only go back to New York if needed."

Masayang nagpalakpakan at hiyawan ang mga nasa audience kaya naman lumapad ang ngiti ko dahil sa kanilang suporta.

"You heard that guys, so can we expect an upcoming movie adaptation of your novels?"

"Well, it's actually a series. The producer of A Love Untold offered me another job. He wanted to make a adaptation of my novel 'I Will Still Love You'."

Naghiyawan ang mga audience dahilan para ngitian ko sila.

"That would be great!" masayang sabi ng host. "We're having high hopes for that."

"Thank you," nasabi ko na lamang.

"So, Sab, may mga naging usapan din tungkol sa biglaan mong pag-uwi. There's actually a rumour that the reason why you came back here in the Philippines is to pursue again the love you once lost. Is that true?"

Marami ang nagbulungan sa tanong na iyon ng host. Ramdam ko rin ang titig niya sa akin pero hindi na ako nagtangkang lumingon pa.

"It's true," maikling sagot ko dahilan para lalong lumakas ang bulungan nila. "I already said on my previous interviews that it was a half hearted decision when I went to New York."

Bumuntong hininga ako at nilingon siya na namamanghang nakatitig sa akin. He didn't expect me to talk about us in public maybe. But I'm not an actress who needed to hide my dating life just to not lose my fans. I'm a writer and being in love something I wanna be proud of.

"I've been inlove with this guy since college or maybe earlier than that but our timing is just so wrong. Still, we tried if we could work things out pero hindi talaga pwedi kasi mas marami ang masasaktan kapag pinilit pa namin ang amin."

I force a smile as I remember the things that happened in the past. It's like a movie scene replaying in my memories.

"I was hurt, heart broken. I just wanted to runaway and through these years, I tried my best to heal myself and I actually succeeded but something inside me tells me that there's still something missing."

Muli akong tumingin sa host.

"So when my father asked me to do this interview, knowing there's really a big possibility to meet him again, I said yes without having a second thoughts because deep inside, I know that it will make me whole if I will have the chance to see him again."

Tumayo ako at nagtungo sa lugar ng mga audience na ikinagulat ng host. I also heard some audience gasp when I started walking towards them. Sinundan din naman ako ng camera at kita ko ang gulat na gulat na expresyon ni Xiv nang huminto ako sa harapan niya.