9. How Do I Do?

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I cut myself,
Only to feel the pain,
As I love the sensation,
Through it which I gain.

I hide my scars,
Not out of shame,
But just to make sure,
They remain unseen.

I wish to stop this habit,
But my hand picks the blade,
Not even a minute later,
I find my arm turns into a red shade.

My life has worsened,
I do it to forget,
I cut deeper and deeper,
Without any regret.

I lose my consciousness,
As I hit the ground,
I have repeated it,
And now I don't hear any sound.

A few days later,
I wake up on a bed,
With tubes attached to me,
And a severe pounding in my head.

I let out a sigh,
As I realize, I have survived,
I look around to find people,
Whose eyes were emotionally deprived.

I had acted very insensitively,
As I tried again that shit,
Yes, it was suicide,
Which I tried to commit.

I know I should stop,
Cause it's hurting others too,
I need to become someone new,
But, how do I do?

By - Suzy

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