The Way of Clarissa Fray

Chapter 12: I know.

Clarys POV

I feel like I could float.
Float up into the sky and out of the earths atmosphere till the stars themselves swallow me whole and I am forever captured in the beautiful twinkling lights that couples have gazed upon for centuries.

And Only jace makes me feel like this.
I have to dump Sebastian.
I love someone else, someone golden, someone who looks as if god took an extra day just to craft such a creature.

He really was beautiful but I wouldn't be with him until I dumped Sebastian.

Jace made me forget the darkness I had inside me, he replaced it with light, with good and he's the first good and beautiful thing I've dreamt about since the accident.

No clary don't think about that now
You have to focus

I tell myself grabbing the mic and flick the switch on the bottom

Testing, one, two.

Jace exits the back room, guitar in one hand and runs his other through his already messy blonde locks.

Oh god he is unbearably sexy without even trying.

He looks up catching my eye and winks followed by a rather mischievous smile making me turn scarlet, it's moments like these that I wish I could remember what being in bed with him was like.

I was too drunk to remember my own birthday that night and he wasn't much better.

Laughter bellows out from the back room and I can tell its Jon, and sure enough he and alec are next to leave followed by Sebastian.

I can't make eye contact with him, he was going to take me out on a date this weekend and I'm too busy thinking about another boy, a boy that's his friend... I think?

I can hear the boys setting up behind me on the small wooden stage in the corner of the coffee shop and before long they have start to practice their intruments.

While they do I head over to the counter for a quick cappuccino, the girl serving me is quite pretty, I know it and I can tell Jonathan knows it.

"A small cappuccino please." I ask

I haven't seen her before though, she must be new and I suddenly begin to feel quite self conscious and attempt to move as far away as possible from the tall wavy haired platinum blonde but I'm grabbed by the waist by someone behind me letting out a yelp and nearly knocking the coffee that's being placed infront of me into the baristas face.

"Jesus Christ Seb!" I scream turning to face his shaking figure, oh yeah cause hot coffee in the face is hilarious.

"It's not funny!" I slap his chest and he calms down enough to notice the blonde behind me giving her a once (or twice) over before pulling me closer to him

"It was a little funny, you almost peed yourself" he smiles nuzzling his face into the crook of my neck and I roll my eyes and try to break free from the iron grip that he calls a hug but it's no use, I'm stuck.

"Shouldn't you be practicing?" I ask him and he glances over his shoulder for a moment at the stage before shrugging

"They seem to be doing fine without me" he grumbles almost to himself

"Also I wanted to make sure we're still on for our date after this" he asks and I look at jace over Sebastian's shoulder who has also stopped and now watching Sebastian and I like a hawk, Jons trying to get his attention but I can tell he couldn't give a fuck what my brother has to say. We look at each other for what seems like hours before I finally look back up at Sebastian's face.

"Ugh, look about that..." I start but he doesn't bother letting me finish, he practically throws me away from him and runs a hand through his straight black hair

"You know clary the more I try the less you seem to fucking care" he snaps at me and i back off like I've been shot

He leans in now
"I know about you two by the way, I'm not an idiot even though you seem to think so." He smirks evilly at me.

He knows... How does he know? We didn't tell anyone?! Wait... How much does he know? Oh god please tell me jace didn't brag.

All I can manage to whisper back in panic is
"What?!"

He hasn't stopped smiling
"You and Alec, I know you slept together." He laughs and my eyeballs nearly fly out of my skull

"Alec? What the hell makes you think I slept with alec?!" I whisper yell at him and he laughs even harder

"Oh man your adorable" he says
"I saw you sneaking out of his house the morning we met admittedly I didn't know who you were at the time, we all stayed over and I saw you fleeing. Then That morning the first thing he asks is 'where'd the red head go?' A little obvious don't you think?" He explains to me and I almost laugh in his face

Jesus I didn't think he was an idiot before but I do now

"Seb, Alec is gay." Now it's his turn to act shocked

"Gay? Alec isn't gay clary, Jesus Christ!" He laughs and I almost slap sense into him

"Yes he is Sebastian for fuck sake he has a boyfriend!" I shout at him

He thinks about this for a moment with a look of utter confusion on his face, he seriously didn't know his friend was gay and I was practically told within a day of knowing him, obviously he didn't trust Seb?

"since when did alec have a boyfriend?! And if so what's with all the sneaking around?" He asks raising his eyebrows at me

"I don't know you've known him longer and sebastian think about it obviously he's going to see magnus!"

"He's dating magnus?! I don't believe you" he says and I laugh now

"Oh and why not?"

"Because if you weren't there for alec then the only other person is jace" he smirks

"And well... Your not exactly his type"

That stings and I suddenly become defensive

"What's that supposed to mean?!"

"Well clary look at you, small, ginger... Seriously if you saw the girls he usually gets with you'd run a mile, sorry to break it to you but unless your tall and model-like then you have no chance with jace" he laughs in my face and the thing that hurts the most is knowing that this time he's probably right

Jace could get absolutely any girl he wants, why on earth would he choose me?

I stand there for a while having an internal war with myself before I realise he has actually just blatantly insulted me, I turn and pick up the now warm coffee and throw it over him with tears in my eyes and shove him out my way as I run for the door, crashing through it nearly breaking the glass and run down the street hearing jace calling me from behind.

God I hope he doesn't follow me.

Hey guys 😊 long time no see, hope you like it.

So Sebastian's a bit of a dick, and an idiot... What's new? 😄
I think we can safely say clabastian is over, make way for clace!!