When Does It End?

Where Would I Even Go?

Wow. She never comes over. I mean, sure, occasionally, she would throw me a dirty look or shout something mean across the room, but she has never physically come over to me. So, this can't be good. She, along with her huge group of friends were almost right in front of me now, huge, sly grins platered on their faces. Me and my big mouth! This is the sort of thing that gets me into trouble when I am at home. Normally, while she would be throwing comments towards me, about how I dress, or my hair or my body, I would just stand their, giving the occasionally nod, and avoiding to even bother looking her in the eye. But today, I honestly can be bothered with her childlike actions. I knew it wasnt the best idea, but I figured that she may as well know how much her words can hurt. Wait. What am I even saying? That's just exactly what she wants. Maybe I could give her a good and hard slap in the face, just like I've always wanted to. No, bad idea again. She is so much bigger and stronger than I am. I, myself am just a petite, fragile girl. I can barely even reach the lightswitch in my room (but to be fair it is quite high up). There was nothing really I can do, except to take the verbal abuse like any other day. Oh boy, here we go.

"Hi, there Jemima, she greeted with an overacted smile on her face "how are you today?"

"It's Jamie, I reply in a smug tone. She doesn't actually think I'm going to believe that she is actually being nice to me. "And I'm fine" Not really.

"Oh, good" Shut up. I turn around to walk away, but I am stopped by a muscualr arm making a strong grip on my upper arm. Ouch! Right on my newly forming bruises. Give a girl a break, for god's sake. "Where do you think you're going, Jamie?" an all too familiar voice asks. I turn around only to be face to face with Mrs. Lyons. She doesn't look too happy either. What exactly am I supposed to say to her. All I really want to do at this moment in time is run away and get out school grounds, away from everyone. But, seriously, that's not really going to happen. I don't even want to think about what my dad would do if he had to be called out of work because I had walked out of school, with no explanation of where I was even going. Where would I go? Not home. Definitely not home. That's the first place my father would go to find me. Aunt Susan's house? Probably not a good idea. She would just call my father to come pick me up. Plus her house is about five miles from here. It would cost me a fortune even I just took the bus. Maybe I could go to uncle Christians house. He absolutely hates my father with a passion. He would let me stay at his house for as long as I needed, and he wouldn't tell my father. Wow. I haven't seen him in almost three years now. Would he even recognise me? I had definitely gotten skinnier since then. And my hair is blonde now, instead of brunette.

I am so deep in my own thoughts right that I haven't even noticed Mrs. Liles eyeballing me. She clears her throat and I look up into those demonic eyes staring at me. I have always had the idea that she had been possesed by the Devil himself. Oh God, snap out of it, Jamie. What was it that she asked me again?

"Earth to Jamie!" She yelled at me causing the other girls to laugh. I'm not even sure if they are even laughing, but just pretending, much to my dismay. I don't know why, but seeing the girls laughing has brung me close to tears. It has never bothered me this much before. Mrs. Lyons seemed to notice and her face softened. "Jamie, where were you going?" she asked once again, her voice a lot softer this time.

"Nowhere, miss" I answer plainly, with my head down, so the other girls won't see the tears forming in my eyes.

She leaned in and whispered so only she and I could hear, "Do you feel sick?" I nodded my head, but still kept my head down. She leaned down again, "Do you want to go to the nurse?"

I don't really feel sick but I can't be bothered with all the mean comments and snide remarks from the other girls. I nodded. She stood up and took out her notebook and a pen, that she had been holding behind her ear. Once she is finished, she hands me the note and sends me to the nurse. I spend the remainder of first and second period in the nurse's office with a bucket in my hands and a thermometer under my tongue. The nurse said that I seem fine and I tell her that I feel fine now and walk out without speaking another word. I have to get to the girls bathroom and quick.