In My Time Of Dying

My Pain

Hi my name is Madison and I was born with coronary artery disease or CAD. If you don't know what that is it is the deadliest heart disease you can have and sadly can't be cured. It is caused when blood vessels that supply blood to the heart become narrow. I have to take alot of medication just to keep my heart beating. I'm 23 and believe me no one thought I'd live this long and well until about a week ago I thought I was gonna make it. Last week I found out from the doctor that I only have one year to live. Don't feel bad for me I've been dying since I was born and I've known it.
I am a waiter at Big Johns Bar &Restaurant. I live in a nice apartment with my roommate Lexa. Born and raised in Oregon where I'm pretty sure ill be laid to rest. I have two hobbies which are art and writing. I love doing both because they keep my mind off how fucked up my life is.
My parents have always been my biggest supporters. They are there for every doctors appointment and every test. The refer to me as their personal little angel. They have always promised me that they will be there even in the end.
I gave never had a boyfriend. Why you ask well because if I fell in love it would be to hard to say goodbye. Besides Lexa I have a friend name Lucas. He's gay and if he was straight he'd be a womanizer. We work together at Big John's. He has made it his mission to always put a smile on my face. He is has dark skin a deep brown eyes, jet black hair and has a man bun. You touch his man bun without his permission believe ne he will murder you in his sleep. Lexa is Italian and has light tan skin, she likes to wear red contacts but her real eye color is deep brown and her hair is shinny black and she has the body of a model. As for me I am pale skin, with black hair and have sky blue eyes. I get my looks from my mother except for the eyes those are my fathers.

Let's get one thing straight before we go further. I'm not afraid to die at this point. I'm afraid of dying alone. I pray every day that I don't die alone. Hopefully my prayers will be answered.