𝑫𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔

ᴠ ᴜ ʟ ɴ ᴇ ʀ ᴀ ʙ ʟ ᴇ

I doubt I'll make you feel things through this. I sing and do a bit of songwriting but I feel it's not that deep. It's like if you just read the lyrics, you might not feel anything but the same words will hit you hard when the artist sings it. And that's not the case with poetry, I feel poems have more depth. A poet can make you feel things through his words alone but I can't do that since I can't write like that. I'm not good at this but I hope you'll give me a chance :)

I am looking forward to your comments ! It's my first work and I am dying to know how you feel about it :)

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Do you ever get that feeling which scares you the most sometimes?

Being vulnerable.

No? But I do

Scared that someday someone will break down your walls and walk right into your deepest, darkest place that you thought was impenetrable.

Jokes on you,

It's broken now,

Knocked down like a bowling pin.

And then that person sees you at your most vulnerable,

true self.

It's like he can see you without the covers that you always hide in,

without your shell.

However hard you try to cover yourself up,

You just can't put up the barrier anymore.

You're still scared,

You're standing there naked with your thoughts.

You're afraid because you don't know what lies ahead

You feel weak,

You feel as if you don't have control over it anymore.

The person who finds you in this state now has you in his hands

You let your guard down,

And finally he did what he had to,

He had his way with you and he left.

You were shattered once again

You have no idea how to put those walls back up again and now you feel exposed and disgusted.
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Yes, that's exactly how I feel like.

I used to think, what if I gave you my all ?

Would you still stay?

No, you won't & you didn't.

I bared my soul to you,

Instead you fucked with my feelings.

You fucked with me,

Made me believe that I could be safe with you.

You tore down the only thing that I had to protect myself

How does it feel toying with me like that?

I know you enjoyed every second of it,

I know you'll come back and do it again.

And I'll let you,

Cause I'm a fool for you.

But I don't want this anymore,

Don't be the reason that I can't trust anyone anymore, that I can't fall in love with anyone anymore .

I'm begging you,

Please stop,

I can't take it anymore.

I don't want you to take my heart away if this is how it would be once you're gone

I don't want you to break me down,

I don't want to be vulnerable,

Cause I won't make it out alive.

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I know there are so many talented people here and I could never reach their level. I'm kinda nervous at the thought that you just read this but it's been on my mind lately & I had to put it out there.
Do let me know what you think of it !

Also if you liked this, don't forget to add this to your library/ reading list ! I've got a few more parts to tell my story :)