J9 Oneshot | Thanks For The Memories

First Part

✨ 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣'𝙩 𝙨𝙤 𝙜𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩 ✨

"Tell me, Joong." Nine pleaded. His head on Joong's chest not breaking the forced hug. He's not ready to let the younger go.

"Is she better than me?" Nine broke the hug which made Joong let out a deep sigh. He held Joong's hand for the very last time pleading him to stay. His hand will always be rough and large that makes Nine feel like he's always protected. Nine will miss holding his hand. He'll surely miss Joong.

Joong knew this day would come and he hated it. He found relief and home in Nine and his family. He loves Nine. But nothing can compare the love he experienced with Moowarn.

No one dared to talk. Joong doesn't want to hurt his P' Nine. But they both need to face the reality. They weren't really meant for each other. Silence engulfed the surroundings and it's killing them slowly.

Joong held Nine's chin up and they made contact. Nine's eyes immediately clouded with tears. Loud sobs can be heard. His lips are shaking, unable to utter words.

"P' Nine. I want you to go out. Travel the world. Discover more. I wanna see you succeed. I'm so happy that I've met you and your family. I love you. I hate seeing you pleading for someone who can never love you back. You deserve more. You deserve the greatest." Joong said then cupped Nine's cheeks. He's really cute as ever. Joong thought. Damn he looked cute even when he's crying.

"Moowarn's not better than you. Because she's the best. P' Nine you can also be someone's best. But not for me. I found mine already." Joong's now holding Nines's hand tightly, just like the old times, but now it's different.

"P' Nine, I really need to go. My wife's waiting. And she's giving birth today." He said. Joong wants to know that he's happy in his current state. He also want his P' Nine to experience happiness in his life.

Nine played the game of love and he never won. I needs to accept this. I needs to start over, it's a dead end already. Nine thought still not breaking any contact with Joong.

"Yes, yes of course. You're going to be a dad right? Haha Congratulations, I'm so happy for you." Nine laughed with a hint of paint. He wiped his tears and plastered a fake smile.
You can do this. Not for Joong. Do it for yourself. Nine thought.

"Nothing will change between us P' Nine. Please stop crying. I don't want to see you cry.  I'm still your, Nong. We can catch up sometime, okay? I must go. My wife and my little Joong is waiting at the hospital. Goodbye, P' Nine. Until then." And they hugged finally. Joong engulfed Nine with the warmest hug they can share. No it was not a romantic hug. But it was calming.

He patted Nine's head. It feels like home. Nine will miss his scent. His warm hugs. The way their bodies complement with each other like a jigsaw puzzle. It's truly calming and oh how he wished if he could only stop the time and freeze it forever.

Nine was the one who broke the hug.
I need to stop this. We need to. Nine thought.

He lowered his head as he broke out small sobs. He finally looked back at Joong and showcased a timid smile.

"Joong, Thank you. I love you so much. Thanks for the memories. Even though they weren't so great. Be a good Dad. Don't sulk anymore. I'm truly happy for you." Nine reassured him.

Joog smiled back then walked away and run fast to his car. Nine felt like he was freed from a tangled thread. He is still in pain and yet he's somewhat relieved.

What just happened. It feels unreal. Ming just left. He's alone now. He's staring at nowhere. The afternoon wind hits different, he felt lonely. He doesn't know where to go. He just wants to leave and dissapear.

Maybe Joong was right. I deserve to be happy too. Nine thought and smiled a little as he saw Joong's car just passed by him.

"Maybe Joong was the best thing that happened to me. But for Joong it was not me. It's Moowarn. Maybe I'm not really his Earth."

Nine stated as he slowly went back to his car.