Maybe My Heart Can Remember You [ MICHAENG ]

Chapter 6.

Nayeon's POV :

It's 8:35 PM when I remember our double with Chaeyoung I'm with my girlfriend, Jeongyeon.

I really love this woman even though I knew in myself, she's still into her ex.

We've been a year and half of month but I don't know if I'm being loved back by her

Everytime she get drunk, I always hear the name "Mina" while she's crying so hard begging the girl to come back to her.

It really hurts knowing she's still inlove with her ex. It makes my heart wants to explode.

I felt my heart stabbing by a thousands of knife

I cries out loud everytime she's doing that but I'm not letting her to notice it

God knows how scared I am to lose her

It's okay if she can't love me back at least, I can call her mine and that's all that matters.

I'm willing to sacrifice everything for her, I'm willing to take any kind of risk just to be with her in the end.

I know I'm being martyr at this state, I just love her that much.

Is it crime to love the person who can't love you back? 'cause if it is, I'm willing to go to jail voluntarily

"hey babe, you said we're having a date tonight right?" she ask

"yes babe but not only us babe. Let's say, it's a double date" I explain and she just nodded

"with whom babe?"

"It's Chaeyoung baby, my friend and her girlfriend"

When I mention Chaeyoung's name, I notice her mood suddenly change

"C-chaeyoung? You mean, Son Chaeyoung?"

How did she knows Chaeyoung if I haven't introduce Chaeyoung to her

"Yes babe. Do you know---"

"we won't come" she said coldly

"wh--"

"I said, we won't come! Which part you can't understand?!" she's shouting at me again

I know, she can't love me back but this is the first time that she act like that towards me

"babe, I'm sorry"

I'm about to hold her hand when she swing it away to prevent me from holding it

"I'm tired Nayeon, let me rest" she said

She then left as I can't hold my emotion anymore

I can feel again those knives stabbing my heart

I called Chaeyoung to inform them that we can't come.

: Nayeon, are you okay? Are you crying? What happe-"

I didn't let her finish, I can't handle my emotion right now.

I know she noticed my voice is cracking up but I don't want to ruin their date just to comfort me.

Why are you being like this Jeongyeon? Why are you so mean with each words coming out from your mouth?

Is year not enough to forget her? Am I not enough reason to forget her?

Why I loves you so bad? Why I can't unlove you?

Why this damn heart still wants you even I lost count how many times you hurt me.

I sobs, I really can't handle this.

I'm questioning again may worth to deserve this kind of pain

My emotions eating me right now and that's my way to lessen the pain.

When it come to this kind of situation, only one person I knew can understand me

It's Somi.

Yes, I know her she's Chaeyoung's bestfriend since childhood and we have the same situation

We loved the person who can't love us back. She's been inlove with Chaeyoung but that cub, doesn't know it

She's too numb to notice it or maybe she just really treating Somi as her friend, nothing else.