•im scared•. •Sander sides• [had to delete account]

Alone Again

Hi welcome!!
i promise i don't suck at writing just i suck at plots and just get to the actual bit, (im trying to write a plot lol)
TW: SELF HARMING, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY,PAST DEATH
A LOT OF SWEARING

Again, again again again again again.. Deceit thought. Just a few minuted ago he screwed up the only friendship he had. It was longest fight of his life however it was more like him just getting shouted at. He missed Remus so much. He hated himself. Why was he such an idiot all the time?!? Why can't he do something right for one time in his useless life?!? He couldn't take it. He wanted it to end. But.... it can't. Sides can die, but they regenerate after a day or so. They never stay dead forever. Actually, Deceit is the only side that has died before. All he wanted was to be gone forever but it just never works. He knows the other sides just want him gone. Maybe if he died enough times he dies forever? Or maybe....

the forge pit?

Deceit shook his head. Only for drastic measures. he thought. Virgil is the only one who can access it freely anyway. But that's the thing... Virgil. He threw a knife at the wall after slicing his finger a bit and banged himself onto that same wall, probably hoping he was faster then the knife so he could get hit by it. Didn't work out. He just slid down the wall to the ground, heavily disappointed with a bloody finger. Eh, Remus wouldn't mind the noise he made. Wait... he wasn't at the darkside wall... He was at the wall where Logan stayed. There was no way he didn't hear that. Unless he was sleeping...Deceit panicked. Maybe if he just locked himself in the bathroom? Maybe there's no need. Logan might be asleep. But unfortunately enough, Logan had heard it. Deceit just didn't know.

Logan's POV:

What was that?!? It sounded like it came from Deceit's room. I know their fight got pretty bad but that?!? It sounded like someone got hurt or someone almost got hurt. Logan needed to check it out. He rushed out of his room and was ready to summon the other side of the imagination room hallway when...
"Logan, what are you doing here?"
Shit, thought Logan, this isn't good.
Virgil stood in the hallway, most likely trying to get coffee. "You usually aren't up this late, what's going on? Wait...." Shit shit shit shit, Logan thought. He didn't dare speak, he only faced Virgil. "Are you trying to summon the dark side space?!?!" Virgil said, shocked. Of course he would react that way. "I heard concerning noises coming from Deceit's room, i have decided to check what it is to know if he's up to something." He had lied on that last bit, he was genuinely concerned for the lying side. After all, Deceit was now alone, with no one to call a friend or even, an ally. At least Remus was genuinely accepted, just treated not as well, however never like Deceit. Probably because Roman stilled cared for his brother, though still sometimes acting coldly. Deceit was just there, the unwanted, the one that was made clear to that they weren't wanted. Logan never hurt Deceit in anyway, he would never do that to someone so alone and mistreated. However, Logan never really helped. He was the only one that didn't show hatred towards Deceit. "You heard something concerning?!" said the anxious side. Virgil was one of the people who deeply hurts Deceit, of course Deceit never shows it, but Logan can tell through body language. It was only once however, when Virgil and Roman ganged up on Deceit. He seemed so scared. Like it was reminding him of something, But what? "Yes something concerning, you don't need to accompany me, i will be fine on my own." said Logan, he despised Virgil and Roman, because they never let anyone get the chance to know Deceit, to see him for once other then a villain.

"Ugh fine, but tell we what it was after and i'll let you go!" Virgil said. Logan thought for a while, he was a lot stronger then the anxious side, so he simply said, "fine, but it won't be straight away" And with that the anxious and the logical side parted ways. Logan summoned the dark side space and immediately noticed Remus' door, so dark yet so vivid. Then he noticed Deceit's door, what a plain door. Logan liked it however, seeing as Logan's was the same, plain. However, before he could open the door, it opened, with Deceit's head sticking out. "oh- uh- I'll go for food later sorry-" muttered the deceitful side. "No, no it's fine, may I ask what that noise was?" Logan replied. "Oh- That- u-uh I-I" Deceit managed to stutter out.

Deceit's POV:

I'm stuttering, like the idiot i am.. Logan just stood there, i can tell he's probably fed up with me. Instead of him just yelling at me, he did something i would never expect. He hugged me. Why me?! I wasn't worthy of his hugs! He doesn't even hug anyone else and he does to me?! The villain?!?! "u-uh I-I u-um" I kept stuttering. WHY WON'T I JUST SHUT UP. "I-I-" SHUT UP. Finally i shut up, however I can tell Logan is concerned about my behaviour towards a hug. To be honest, it was like i hadn't had a hug in a while, like a long long while. Which was true. I haven't had a hug since 16 years ago. It's been a while i have to admit. Logan pulls away from the hug and says, "Deceit, are you alright, i heard a noise and-". "N-no no! I'm perfectly fine I-.." i stuttered, WHEN WILL I NOT FUCK UP, I'M SUCH A FUCK UP. "Deceit...". I composed myself and said, "no really, just Remus sending his last anger out, nothing to worry about...". That backfired quickly. "Did you get hurt, i would like to examine if you got hurt, i'm afraid that Remus barley ever misses" Logan said.  "No really I-im fine" I replied. I stuttered-.. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck i panicked.  "Deceit," he sighed "Fine, i will believe this, however if you need healing or anything like that, you may come into my room" And with that Logan walked away... Oh wait- he had my blood on him from my finger..

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Thank you for reading! I'll continue this if anyone wants me to! (part 2 will come out without anyone even seeing this lol)