ONCE UPON A TIME ✨

19. Throw it into River

"Unicorn? How could you.. haha.. " Elijah laughed hilariously at me. "Babe, that look like a monkey to me".

"What?" i said while sitting up. Elijah joined me after he finished his laughing. He adjusted his seat so he could be more comfortable. He looked at me with a smile.

"Beautiful" he whispered.

"Right. The moon and stars" i said, rolling my eyes.

"No. You are" he chuckled. His hair was dancing rythmically to the wind of the night and his eyes were sparkling. It was a beautiful sight, just looking at him made me to feel calmer. I grinned and blushed.

"Let us made a promise tonight. That we will be together no matter what happen. We will always be there for each other and even, if there is a fight between us, we will come up with a solution. Tash, honestly, i don't want to breakup with you. You are my everything and you are my world. There is no chance i could ever life without you" Elijah said, looking straight into my eyes. He held my hands even tigther.

"Elijah, don't talk like that. I would never leave you. And i promise i would be always there for you" i said. And that night was completed by our kiss.

I broke it. I broke my promise to him. I said i always be there for him, but now, im ignoring him, just because i felt too guilty to face him. Does this make me selfish? Does this make me coward? The fact that i ran away because i was too afraid to see him in real life really made me think that im a coward. Im too afraid to life in the reality. I took a deep breath, and i held Betty's friendship ring chain. At that exact moment, i realized that i had a job undone. Letting go of Betty. I was too distracted with Elijah that i totally forgot about Betty. I face palmed myself. Now, im abandoning both of the most important people in my life.

Oh, god. What have you done, Tasha?

***

"Good morning" my mom greeted me with a happy smile in the kitchen.

"Good morning, ma" i answered quietly. For the past two days, i had not been sleeping well. I was having bad dreams about my friends, since i always slept, thinking about them. I had been ignoring about 200 calls and texts from Eleanor, Clint and Elijah. I would only answered phone call from my lecturers because they would be asking about my disappearance in the class and i need to lie to them.

My mom didn't open her mouth for awhile and she examined my face. "Why i felt like you hadn't sleeping? I could see the panda circle around your eyes" she complained.

"Nothing, ma" i sighed.

"You know what? You didn't tell me a thing but i could see something is definitely bothering you. You have to go see your therapist. NOW" she said with hands on her hips. I chuckled because my mother is literally the cutest creature in the world when she was mad at me.

"What are you laughing at?" she said.

"Ma, im fine. You don't need to worry about me" i lied, chuckling nervously. I could really use the help of Dr. Aldrin but i need to explain everything from the beggining to her. Im already pretty tired with things that was happening around me, so i didn't want to tire myself more.

That was just the reason so i didn't need to talk with anyone about the problem.

Suddenly, my phone rang at the television area. I groaned and walked lazily towards it because i thought it was one of my friends. Turned out, i was wrong. It was Dr. Aldrin's office number. I sighed, knowing exactly the reason why Dr. Aldrin would has called me. I turned to my mom who was looking at me with a smirk. She was looking at me as if she could tell who was calling me without taking a look.

"Did you fix an appointment with my therapist?" i asked, rolling my eyes.

"Yes, i did. Now, take the call" she simply said while walking with a proud look.

I shaked my head little bit at her and reluctantly, took the call.

"Good morning, Tasha. I called just to remind you that we have an appointment today at 3pm" Dr. Aldrin said cheerfully.

"Yes, dr. I will see you there" i said lazily. Then, we hung up the phone and i went to my room to prepare mentally on how the hell i am going to talk about my problem.

***

"Have a seat, Tasha" Dr. Aldrin said while taking her own seat. I sat on my seat uncomfortably.

"So, how are you feeling today?" she asked.

"Good" i said plainly without making eye contact with her. Dr. Aldrin could tell from my body languange that i was nervous today. She gave my hand a little squeeze and smiled at me.

"Hey, everything is going to be fine. We are going to find a solution to your problem. What i need you to do is tell me everything that had happened to you since i last saw you. You don't need to be nervous, okay?" she said softly. I looked at her and suddenly, i felt better. Her smile was so reassuring that i could spit out every single thing that has happened. In her room space, i felt safe to tell the stupid and coward stuffs i did so far and i knew that she was not going to judge me. So, i nodded at her.

"Great. So, care to tell me what has happened?" she said. I took a deep breath before i started my story from the day Elijah suggested us to go into the haunted building. I told her how stupid and selfish i was to run away from my friends just because i was not brave enough to face them. I told her how i was having a hard and difficult time to let go of Betty. And, finally, i told her that i love Elijah. The more i told Dr. Aldrin about my problems, the more i feel the burden going out from myself. It was great to have someone who i could share my problems with. At the end of the story, Dr. Aldrin was totally shocked and out of words and she was just looking at me with squinted eyes.

"Wow. I didn't know so much thing had happened since i last saw you" she said with a shocking tone of voice. She cleared her throat before she continued her comments.

"Let me start with Betty. You finally having real feelings for someone is actually the sign that you had moved on from Betty's death. Sure, you might not feel it because deep down, you are too afraid of letting her go. But, i will say that you progressed about 75% than the last time i saw. Now, you just have to try a little bit harder and i assure you that you are going to be fine. Hmm, may i know why are you still keeping the friendship ring?" she said while pointing to the ring chain.

"I.. don't know. Her memories are too strong to let go" i said quietly.

"Tasha, if i were you, i will throw the chain into a river with the memories of her as well. Now, this may sound a little bit rude. But, think this as an action of you letting her go and moving on into your future. The memories you guys had together which are too hard to forget is what making you to still think that you are not moving on. I know Betty was an important person to you and you guys had good time together. But, that was your past, Tash. Elijah, he is your future. You have to do this not for you only, but for him as well. Do you understand me?" Dr. Aldrin said, looking into my eyes. I was out of words from what she just said. My eyes teared up and i started sob softly. Everything she just said struck me right in the heart and she was right.

"Yes" i sniffed.

"Now, lets talk about Elijah" she said.