The Place Where Heaven Really Exist.

torment

Chapter 4;

"We can't be sure what future awaits, but despite of that, keep in mind that not everything that'll going to happen is bad, maybe it is better than your expectation."

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I woke up grimacing because of my head, it feels like splitting in two and being murdered by a hammer. I was still not in my self when I tried to raise my arms but something is preventing me from doing it.

Still not in the right mind, I open my eyes squinting, make it to adjust at the light at the ceiling I directly stare at, I can't help to wonder but...

What happened?

I tried to remember everything and close my eyes but something eerie creep on my mind, like something terrible just happened in my life. Like an impending doom.

While still lost in my reverie someone open the door, its incredibly silent, if I'm still wasn't woken up yet, I can't get to know someone get in to my room. I immediately pretend to be sleeping but I break my sleeping facade when I see my parents standing beside of my hospital bed.

No emotion etched on their face, cold, stoic, no emotion. Even a tiny bit of it, none. My heart pounded even harder, Did I do something bad? Why are they being like that? It scares me

"Stop playing pretending Gray we all know that you're not sleeping." My mom said with her scary monotone voice. I can't help to feel a bit tensionated at the scene.

I open my eyes, wide that I can give a quick scan in my room. All white, the utensils, curtains, the wallpaper, It's all white, neat looking.

I was still in a hazed when my mom suddenly throw her hand bag, resulting in her things violently scattered in the floor, at the window, at the tables. Everywhere. And the wall that her raging bag meet, dented.

Agad akong tinupok ng takot dahil sa pagkabigla, nanlalaki ang mga matang sinalubong ko ang mga titig nila. Parehas silang nakatayo at parang anong oras ay sasabog sila sa sobrang galit.

My heart sank when I see mom burst in her tears while again clutching her heaving chest, ano ba ang nangyari? Bakit siya nagkakaganyan? Nanghihina niya akong tiningnan habang puno ng luha ang mga mata niya, hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng pait sa dibdib ko. Dahil alam kong ako ang dahilan ng mga luhang masaganang lumalabas sa kanyang mga mata. But still, I don't know what's happening.

Tumikhim ang papa kaya napatingin ako sa kanya, still his face doesn't have any emotions. "Pack your things, you're leaving early." He stated. My heart raced and my stomach churned, im what?

"Pero pa! You already told me that I'm leaving by night, its afternoon pa lang, maaga pa masy--"

"That's an order, I don't know how much you hated us Gray for sending you to MI but this thing you've done is too much." My dad said with a hint of bitterness in his voice, nagngingitngit din ang kanyang mga ngipin na parang galit na galit.

"Bakit ano ba ang nangyari? Atsaka bakit may handcuffs ako? Atsaka bakit nasa hospital ako? Tell m--"

"Gray you're using a fucking drug! You're highly intoxicated when a police approached you! You don't know how much shame you taint this family! Palagi mo nalang sinasabi na alam mo na ang lahat ng bagay! Pero nagmumukha ka lang tanga kapag nasa harap mo na ang problema. Gray, this'll be my last shout and conversation with you. We're sending you right away at Misfit Irregularities." Sigaw sa'kin ni mama at dinuduro pa ako.

"What?! Are you accusing me of using drugs?!" I can't help to feel helpless at the same time brave in front of them, It's just-- it's so hard to save yourself from them. When they're already planted an image in their heads. Kapag sumagot pa ako ay sa tingin nila ay nagdadahilan lang ako at gusto masalba ang sarili sa kahihiyan.

I'm maybe a bad daughter and ruthless, but I know myself. I don't use drugs.

Napapikit ako ng itapon niya ang sari-saring papel na tumama naman sa mukha, on my own shock. I read the contents.

Drug names

Cocaine                          Negative

Marijuana                        Negative

Nicotine                          Positive

Opium                              Negative

My heart boomed upon reading the papers.

A drug test

And I tested positive on nicotine

Isn't this day can get any better?

I lowered my gazed, I feel ashamed by the test, but I know myself. I didn't use drugs. I didn't.

Feel defeated and low. I sighed.

And by this time I know I was doomed, all my life.

"We already settle this dispute between the police and the bystanders, We already think that you finally weigh the consequences you're getting. You're leaving this afternoon." My mother said nonchalantly and left the room followed by my father who still giving the look of disdain to me.

I drew a breath in despair, now what?!

This whole thing is pointless, I'm in a vain position, I'm sure my parents wouldn't listen to a single word I say.

I know that the rage my mother feel towards me is immeasurable, the dismayed that my parents feel is immensely unfathomable.

How they're abashed because of me.

Stupid Gray.

I shut my eyes close because of the overwhelming emotion raging inside of me, I can't believe they see me as low as I am now.

I can't believe.

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Unedited because of modules