Declaration or Separation

Don't Go 'Gitme'

She didn't turn back, she kept walking, but slower this time. Due to her aching legs which just wanted to run back to Sekan.

"Don't leave Eda!" Serkan repeated himself louder.

How could she, how could she make the five steps to the taxi. How could she sit in the taxi before her legs embarrass her. How could she resist her heart that pulled her back. How could she leave, after she told him with her own mouth being told not to leave was enough to hold her back.

"Why?" She asked.

Walking back toward him with her last drop of courage and confidence. Still keeping the strong girl faced, she walked back to Serkan, determined, furious and serious.

"Give me one reason to stay, Serkan?" She played her last card. Because she knows nothing he could possibly make in his genius mind of his is not going to do the trick now. This is the question which she imagined will leave Serkan Bolat speechless. She was sure as her name, that he would be silenced. She was certain he would just stand without saying anything. And this was her last card not to break down in front of him. This question was her last defense for her salvation.

The funniest thing is Eda knows Serkan. She knows him well that she learned she should never be sure of what he will do. He called her impulsive and spontaneous, but the truth is he's no different from her. When she thought he was the coldest iceberg in the Antarctic, she found him being warmer than the sun itself. When she understood he's so secretive, she found him opening up with all his words, expressions and heart. When she concludes his unaffectionate and heartless, she found him being gentle and caressing her with so much sincerity and love. He is like a book with endless pages. Every page, every day is a new thing and every line is surprising. She knows him very well, yet she doesn't know him at all. She was in love with the most mysterious man on earth and his beautiful, lovable, exciting, expressible side is just unfolding. That's why it was always hard to predict his next action, because he was spontaneous with her. As much as she was sure he won't find a reason to hold her back. She knew the magician would do his magic and take away her brain and heart once again.

"I madly fell in love with you!" He confessed, answered and declared his love in one sentence. How cruel of him. How heartless of him to say something like that in front of her. He was not allowed. He was not allowed to say something like this without a warning, a sign, and without saying take a seat. But once again he did it without any sign of warning. Serkan did what he does best. Owning Eda's heart.

A person speaks at least 7,000 words a day. And those thousands of words combine together to make a phrase, question and statement. Throughout a day, one could express, order, joke, tell, advice and do so many things using those words. So those very words could make people happy, sad, satisfied, excited, hopeful, hopeless, angry, frustrated, loved, hated, valued, useless, appreciated, wanted, pushed, understood, misunderstood, and so many emotions that could be expressed in words or not. But no one was allowed to stop one's heart with their words. They were not supposed to affect anyone physically. They were only words, not actions. So, why did those seven words of Serkan Bolat stop her heartbeat?

Everything starts rolling right in front of her eyes. The ground betrayed her, her legs abounded her. And most painfully, her brain and heart left her body. Who is she, who is the man standing in front of her. Where is she, why is everything blurry? Why is she only hearing "I madly fell in love with you" like a tape put on repeat. Why can't she feel her heart beating. Her life flushed before her eyes. Is she dying? She lost her balance.

While she was about to fall Serkan catches her and supports her to stand.

"Are you okay?!"
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"Eda?"
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"Eda can you hear me?"
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"Eda!"
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"Eda please say something! Do you wanna go to hospital?"
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"Eda please!"
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