The Inheritance (Book 2) [Complete]

The End

Chapter 30

It's been a year since Yanga and Qhayiya passed away.
Hlalumi" Mom, the nurse is upstairs"
"Don't go outside without her"
I nodded, I wondered if I was that far gone that they felt the need to get me a nurse.
Me" Happy Birthday Nugget, 14 years is a big girl age"
She hugged me
Hlalumi" Thanks Mom"
"I have to go. Will you be okay?"
I nodded. She finally left, I went straight upstairs because I wanted to sleep. The red box caught my eye and I couldn't help but reminisce;

"Smile"
"You know I don't get your fascination with this movie"'
He walked to the tv and switched it off and I threw a pillow at him.
"Life is not a movie"
He threw himself to the bed then pulled me closer to snuggle him.
"Will you remind me everyday?"
I asked him, he pulled me closer then kissed my shoulder. I wanted to stay like this with him. Forever.
" Life isn't a movie Yazini. So I don't know, I don't wanna promise you things that I can't control"
He said
"Then promise me what you can control"
He laughed
"I once told you, I don't make promises"
We both laughed because he always reminds me about this.
Yanga" I love you, that I know, you are my wife, that I know, you are the only person I want to have these moments with but I wouldn't remind you"
"I would like to skip the moments I almost lost you, the years that I spent without you. I want to skip the moments when you regretted being with me, the days you even doubted my love. I want to skip the times you let someone else touch you where I should have touched you, the times you felt like death was better than being alive. I want to wipe the sadness away from you, so I would skip the bad times and just make you fall in love without the baggage"
We made love after he said that, it was emotional, it was slow and sensual, the pleasure was running through my body and I let out a soft moan before closing my eyes.
"I love you"
I said as I straddled him and riding him slowly, this was one of the best sex we've had in a while.
"I love you too"
We took a bath together afterwards, he ran the water while I sat in bed waiting for him to call me.
"Ndize"
He peeped and nodded. I ran to the bathroom.
"Happy Anniversary babe"
I giggled
"You forgot"
He said and I laughed, I really forgot about it.
Me" Can we blame it on my pregnancy brain?"
He kissed my forehead
Yanga" Nope, just blaming you for being a bad wife. Now I have to take back all those gifts"
I raised my brows and he laughed. We finished taking a bath and he led me to our room, we both got dressed.
"You can open that box"
I ran to the box and I opened it, I was confused at it. It was just a bunch of newspapers.
"Open everything"
He said with a huge smile on his face, I opened the first one and I saw a certificate.
"Yanga"
He giggled
"Just read! To think you were once a broker"
I laughed at the comment,I opened all the certificates and then finally read it.
"You bought me stock?"
He bought stock on Netflix, Uber, Apple Inc, and Johnson and Johnson.
Yanga" Happy Anniversary Yazini"

I don't know how I survived a year without him, I miss Qhayiya even more. And for once I was actually thankful for my short team memory, I was grateful for the moments I didn't even remember them. Or the days I actually forgot they died. Some days I spoke to him, and I swear to God he sometimes replies. I don't know if I can ever move on from Yanga. I never want to move on from Yanga, I will never forgive myself for losing Qhayiya. My son died and I stayed.
"Yaya"
I looked up and Qhama was standing there, he was wearing a white coat and I smiled at him.
"I hate it, I look stupid"
I laughed
Me"No you don't"
"Coming back from work?"
He nodded, he got inside and closed the door.
Qhama" What's wrong?"
I smiled
Me" Nothing, I am good. You okay?"
Qhama" I am tired. I miss how things were"
" I miss you, the old you"
I held his face then kissed his forehead, I wiped his tears.
" You know it gets worse"
"I am sorry Qhama"
He cried on my chest and I let him, he needed this. I needed this from him.
Me" I am proud of you"
" You see that box? It has everything you'll need when I pass away. You two will be taken care of, you'll never have to worry about that"
He looked at me.
Qhama" Yazini please"
"I don't want you to die"
Me" Me too. I'm so scared, but I can't live like this. I am not okay with living like this"
"You'll be fine Qhama. You'll meet someone who loves you, who will marry you and have your children. Who will show you that there is more to life than sadness. You just need to open your heart and let her love you the way you deserve to be loved. Live your life, uyeva Qhama? Live. Never waste a Saturday"
Qhama" You said you'll always be with me until we old and smelly"
"You promised me Yazini. You said you will always come back for me"
I gave him my journal
"Read the first page out loud"

"I have lived in the shadows for so long, sadness was all I've ever known. Maybe that's what happens when you love the people you love, that's the price you pay for never letting go of all the sadness. You live in shadows.

I have spent my life apologizing for things that were never my fault to begin with. I apologized for what my mother did to Claire Montgomery-Rhodes, I apologized to Qhama because he was forced to grow up without both his parents and he was suddenly stuck with me as a parent, I apologized to my grandmother for my mother dying and thinking she would love us because we were her grandchildren. I apologized to Hlalumi because she had to stop lost her father and was stuck with my mother that wasn't well, you know. To Qhayiya because he died before he could even enjoy his life. I had to apologize to my husband because I forced him to work for the good guys and he died because of me. To Sange and Khanya because I'd never babysit for the the way they babysat Qhama for me. To my in laws because they lost their son and grandchildren, yet their daughter in law was too much of a mess to let them grieve without her forcing e everyone to call Yanga. To Yanga's friends, who are now stuck with me instead of him and they have no choice because they are good people.

In my apologies I then smile because I had parents that loved me, my mother gave me a little brother, Qhama was the best thing about me, and the year I spent with Claire was both bittersweet, because Qhama and I had a guest that we both liked. I smile because I met Khanya and Sange, they taught me that family isn't always about blood relation. I smile because their love for me broke so many walls that I had built, I am always grateful for them. Because of them I gave Yanga a chance, because of them Qhama finally found a father figure. So yes, I smile through the hard times because my brother and I found a family with a man who has a dog named Giant, a man who wants to love us and take care of us. A man who looks at me like I am the best thing on Earth since wine, who loves my brother like his own child. His friends who welcomed and accepted my brother and I, made us feel like we were part of their family. My children; Hlalumi and Qhayiya, because of them I learned that love is unconditional when it comes to your own children. That I could slay dragons not just for Qhama only but for them too. I learned that one song, can mean the world to them because it's something we share together.

So I am ready for my memories to be in shambles because I have loved and been hurt the same amount of times. I have met the love of my life, gave him children, gave Qhama an education. I did that! When it seemed impossible, I did it!. I may forget, but some things are written in the stars. It's been amazing, I have been through hell and back, I wouldn't change anything. I made it to my 35th birthday, anything after that is just a blessing from God.

So, cry because it hurts right now. But never forget to smile through the pain. It has always beeen part of my inheritance, and that's okay"

The end