Where It All Began

Prologue

I woke up in the morning with a heavy feeling in my chest, I stared at the ceiling as I try to remember my dream last night, to know if it's the reason why I'm feeling like this. I stayed like that for over an hour before going to the bathroom in my condo to take a bath.

"Hello?" I answered my phone when I saw my friend, Alex calling.

"Okay ka lang ba?" Ayun agad ang bungad niya sa akin.

Kumunot ang noo ko doon at tinanong siya gamit ang nagta-takang boses. "Huh? Anong meron? Bakit naman hindi ako magiging okay?"

"Oh, you didn't remember.. that's good. It really means you're moving on. I'm happy for you, Kass." She said with relief in her voice.

I was about to ask her why she called today when I suddenly saw the date on my phone. March 3. My heart started aching as I remember what happened on this day. It's that time of the year, again.. I stared at my phone for so long that I forgot that Alex was still on the other line of the call.

"Hello?" Paulit-ulit niyang sinabi nang hindi niya narinig ang sagot ko kanina.

"Oh, h-hi. I'm sorry, I'm a little busy. I have to go now, I'll call you when I'm free." I told her in a rush and ended the call immediately.

Pagkatapos kong mag hilamos ay tinitigan ko ng matagal ang sarili ko sa salamin. Namumuo ang luha sa gilid ng mga mata ko. Bago pa man ito tuluyang malaglag ay pinunasan ko na ito.

"How could you not remember it?" I asked myself when I remembered that I forgot what today was supposed to be.

It still pains me when I try to recollect what happened that day.. I can't. I just can't. I was about to cry but, I stopped when I saw a dozen of messages by my friends, sent just minutes ago. I didn't open any of it because I know what it's all about, comforting messages.

I turned off my phone before I went to my closet to find clothes to wear. I can't just stay here all day, I also can't go to my friends because I don't want to see their eyes pitying me, again. So, I decided to spend some time with myself. And, also.. I have to visit him.

I want to see him.

Before I went inside my car, I opened my phone again and left a message for my friends not to worry because I am okay. After sending those messages to them, I turned on airplane mode. I drove for hours because it was traffic, I opened my radio to chill for a bit because based on what I am seeing right now, it looks like these cars won't be moving any time soon.

I was just listening to the music playing in the radio while I was driving. When I finally parked my car in the parking lot, I took a deep breath before going out. You can do it, Kass. I said to motivate myself then, opened the door.

I'm holding a bouquet of flowers in my hands while I'm walking, my heart starts to beat fast. I bumped into some people because I was feeling really nervous. It has been a year since I last saw him and I feel really guilty, due to the fact that I didn't even remember him today.

I was about to turn around and just let it be when I saw him...

There he was looking so peaceful..

The tears that I've been trying so hard to hold inside me started streaming down my face as I walk towards him. It has been so long. I wonder how he is so, I piled up my courage to face him.

"Hey." I smiled as I try to get his attention when I'm finally in front of him.

I've been smiling at him the whole time and I know he is, too. I talked to him, for hours, trying to update him about what happened in my life.

I look at him again, trying to remember everything about him.

And, there I remembered.

Where it all began...