I'm here
I exist
apparently
I was created without my consent
raised in a way I didn't know to resent
I'm here
I exist
coincidentally
I don't have the guts to reverse my birth
instead I say I will in a tone of mirth
I'm here
I exist
retroactively
I realize I could have done nothing to change my life story
but that doesn't stop the hours I lay awake and worry
I'm here
I exist
unfortunately
stuck in a world I don't understand
reaching out only to hold my own hand
I'm here
I exist
hysterically
laughing when I'm with friends I've made into family
wondering if these out of everyone else will truly understand me
I'm here
I exist
disparagingly
thinking about how awful I am why do I exist in this godforsaken place
what on earth caused me to be part of the human race
I'm here
I exist
apparently
I'm real, and I wish that I wasn't myself
I'm Jason, but nobody knows who that is
nobody understands what they see
and I simply continue to be who I am
which is, unfortunately, me
Written by Jason on August 31, 2020 at 12:02 am
YOU ARE READING
unfortunately, me
PoetryI'm starting a poetry compilation! These poems will be written by various alters (I am a system, look it up if you don't know what I mean) and each one will have the date and author posted with it to avoid confusion. Updates won't be very often, bu...
