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  I realized my eyes are glossy too. He hugged me. "Jaden I swear I won't make her sad."

  Then my phone is buzzed. I saw Lana sent me a photo.

Babygirl ❤️:

Makeup and hair done, wow it's 5 pm, I never thought it'd be this long. Now the makeup artist and hairdresser is leaving, girls didn't come, I'm too angry to them. Addison didn't come or call too. I guess I'm ready, just waiting for you to come, then we can go to wedding place.

  I showed the photo to Jaden. He started to cry more. I texted to Lana that I'll go to home in thirty minutes.

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  Then I left Jaden to Sway and called Lana to say that I'm coming home. She didn't answer, I felt a pain in my heart.

  When I entered the home I waited for the gates open but they didn't. Then I realized our house system is not working, camera's too. Why are they not working? I'm starting to getting nervous.

  I entered the password and turned the system on, then went into garden. I ringed the bell and waited for Lana to open. She didn't came. Ugh, probably she's in her room and didn't hear the ring. Lana wish you weren't that stubborn and accepted have maids in house. I opened the door with my keys and  went into house.

  "Lana babe I'm in home!" I yelled. She didn't answer, this moment my heart started to crashing, I felt like I couldn't breath. I went to our bedroom, opened the door and went in.

  Wish I never did.

  When I saw her I felt an incredible pain in my body. It felts like every single bones in my body is just breaking, I couldn't breath, I couldn't cry, I couldn't believe. I tried to speak but I was shocked. I wanted to scream her name but the words didn't come out.

  My knees and hands were shaking. I walk over her body laying on the floor, full of blood. I sat desperately down to floor and started to cry in tears.
I hugged her. "Lana please wake up."

  I touched her neck too see if it's too late to save her. "Noo!" I screamed. "Lana please wake up, please don't do that to me!"

  Then I realized a gun in her left hand. Did she kill herself? "Why?" I screamed. "Lana I love you, we would be too happy. Why did you do that to yourself?"

  I sat with her nearly an hour don't know what to do. I see no reason for her to kill herselft. It has to be a murder. Some bastard killed my wife. Then I called police. I watched them when they were carrying the dead body of my wife in a bag. God, now please take me, please take me so I can be with her in the pits of hell.

  Everyone was in my house, everyone was crying. I couldn't cry cause right now my anger was shading my pain. I saw Mads crying till her eyes out. "Don't cry bitch!" I yelled. "You're the reason. You should've been with her but you didn't. She died because of you!" She looked at me. "I-I'm sorry."

  Sorry? She is sorry. SHE IS SORRY! "SORRY CAN'T SAVE MY WIFE NOW!" I yelled. "Fuck off. All of you. GET THE FUCK OUT OFF MY HOUSE!"

  "Ryland stop that, can't you see we are all sad?" said Addison.

  "Sad, huh? Are you sad? Where were you when she was dying? It's all your fault Addison, you are the worst sister I've ever seen. Get the fuck off, you don't deserve to be in her house."

"Ryland please...." said Charli. "She was our friend, you can't imagine how much I'm grieving."

"You can't imagine how I'm feeling." I yelled. Then I couldn't hold my tears back anymore, I sat on the floor crying. "Everything I've ever cared about is gone. I've never been more alone. I have nothing. No one! Alright, it's all gone!Lana is gone!..."

  Jaden sat next me and hugged me. He didn't say any word, just sat and hugged me.

  They took her body, her diary, the gun and the security camera records to investigate but I know they will find nothing. The cameras was off. The gun was in her left hand and there was a suicide note in her dairy. Of course they will call this a suicide but I know she would never do that.

Then suddenly I got wiser. The security system was shutdown. Someone knows the password. The gun was in her left hand. Someone knows she is left handed. Even maybe someone knows she thought killing herself.

Oh my God, know I'm in the same room with my wife's killer.

I looked at everyone's face. Amelie and Blake, they were in Malibu but I don't know. Cynthia and Quinton, I'm not sure where they were. Addison, she should be with her sister but she wasn't. So where were she? Mads too, she should've been with her. Nessa and Josh, I don't know, Kio, obsessed ex boyfriend, I don't know where he was, Riley, she lost her boyfriend because of Lana, quiet good reason to hate her, Anthony, he always looks so sweet but he lost his girlfriend, he might be a secret psycho. Griffin, he knows about medicine, he might know where to shoot for a certain death. Noah, he is crying too much, it might be guilt tears. Charli and Dixie, Charli yelled at me, she said she is grieving, I already know that, why did she said it again? It might be a cover up. Bryce, we just had a fight, he is more obsessed than Kio, perfectly fits for a crime but not like Mads did.

I was out with Jaden and Nick, I'm sure they are not killer but Mads might be, knows password, knows Lana is left handed, knows she thought of killing herself, knows she will leave her legacy to Jaden and her. It might be a plan, why I was out with Jaden, was he trying to keep me away from home? Why is he hugging me now, I don't know...

Or maybe Avani? I was out with Nick, he was trying to keep me away from home, he was besties with Avani, so Amelie too. Amelie knows our password, Nick knows Lana is left handed... Amelie didn't order the cherry coke cause maybe she knows Avani will kill her so no one will drink the cherry colas... Am I getting paranoid?

The only thing I know is I'm not killer, and she didn't kill herself too. Autopsy results will be in my hands on Monday...

We will see if it's suicide or not.

"Can everyone go home and leave me alone?" I said. I need to play wisely if I want to find my wife's killer. He or she is in this room and I couldn't find. "I need to rest." I looked at my suit full of Lana's blood.I hold my tears back, kept my voice cold. "And get clean."

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   I can't believe I wrote this chapter. 😭
   I'm crying now, when I get better I'll come back with a explanation of new book. There is two or three more chapter left in the book, but I'm not in good mood to write them, maybe tomorrow?
  Then. I'll take a lil break and turn back with a new book "Who killed Lana?"  I already did the book cover, take a look.
 

           (13 Reasons Why vibes, duhh)
 
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