One Shots

Aware

There's this kid. He's older but I kinda regard him as a kid. Anyway, he's a new student in our school. I mean, I'm not assuming things but I guess I made a wrong move once again.

He's constantly sending me messages and really tries to get to me. However, even though his intention's probably clean, I've had enough of experiences that prevents me to easily trust people. Forgive me, but I just got tired so much.

And then came this day, 22nd of August 2020, and he basically talked through chat with me and I'm honestly trying to listen to the speaker, which is Ryan.

After the zoom meeting, I guess he got used to me being so fun and lively to talk to, but today, I'm not in the mood. Knowing different things that basically broke me, which I refuse to elaborate, I got stuck inside this negative arena that I always tried to avoid.

He continued to ask me about a lot of things about the meeting. I answered through reacting to his message. (For the record, I feel demotivated every sing time I get this feeling of sadness.) And I came to the point that I honestly told him that I feel lazy to talk to people. Then he asked me why. I told him it's too personal.

And here's something I'm kinda skeptic about.

He told me that he's gonna give me space to settle that personal problem... and that he's just one chat away.

I just hope my assumption's wrong. I'd love to feel hurt, yes, but I don't want to do that to other people.

All things aside, I do hope he can be a friend in real life. We haven't met in personal and I hope, he's just trying to be nice. In comparison to the other guy classmates that I have, he's very thoughtful. It's not a bad thing, to be honest... I just didn't expect that there will still be people who's gonna be nice and such.

I'm obviously not certain if he's like this with all the other friends he have since I don't really know him.

But I guess, I should be thankful to have a friend like that.