c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

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"This is so good that you healed yourself." said Jimmy. "I guess Let Me Get Me is that type of song."

"Exactly." I said.
Like a prayer surrounding us, moving up at this late
Every word is relief
I'ma dance for therapy, all my babies and me
But tonight it's for free
No self-sabotage, no letting my thoughts run
Me and the spiral are done
Burn this camouflage I've been wearing for months

That camouflage was my fake happiness when I was with Bryce.

Tryna let a little happy in for once
I need to let my mind rest
While my body reflects
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
I'm good right now, I won't let me get me
Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside out
Diving in ferociously, dancing intimately
I'm so connected to me
In the dark I'm letting go, so anonymously
I guess this is what it feels like to be free
I need to let my mind rest (my, my mind)
While my body reflects
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
I'm good right now, I won't let me get me
Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside out
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
I'm good right now, I won't let me get me
Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside
Oh, my, I guess this is what it feels like to be free (ooh)
Oh, my, I guess this is what it feels like to see me (ooh)
Don't get me
(Down)
Oh
(Get down)
Don't get me
(Down)
(Get down)
Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside out
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
Don't get me down, I won't let me get me (down)
I'm good right now, I won't let me get me
Take that tired heart and go and turn it inside out

"There is a song in your album named daylight. Is it for Ryland?"

"Of course it is.
My love was as cruel as the cities I lived in
Everyone looked worse in the light
There are so many lines that I've crossed, unforgiven
I'll tell you truth, but never, "Goodbye"
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
I've been sleepin' so long in a twenty-year dark night
And now I see daylight, I only see daylight
Luck of the draw only draws the unlucky
And so I became the butt of the joke
I wounded the good and I trusted the wicked
Clearin' the air, I breathed in the smoke
Maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down
Maybe I've stormed out of every single room in this town
Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it's morning now
It's brighter now, now
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
(I can never look away)
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
(Things will never be the same)
I've been sleepin' so long in a twenty-year dark night
(Now I'm wide awake)
And now I see daylight (daylight)
I only see daylight (daylight)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
And I can still see it all (in my mind)
All of you, all of me (intertwined)
I once believed love would be (black and white)
But it's golden (golden)
And I can still see it all (in my head)
Back and forth from New York (sneakin' in your bed)
I once believed love would be (burnin' red)
But it's golden
Like daylight
Like daylight
Like daylight
Daylight
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
(I can never look away)
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
(Things will never be the same)
I've been sleepin' so long in a twenty-year dark night
(Now I'm wide awake)
And now I see daylight (I see daylight)
I only see daylight (oh)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight (and I can still see it all)
(Back and forth from New York)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight (I once believed love would be burnin' red)
Like daylight
It's golden
Like daylight
You gotta step into the daylight and let it go
Just let it go
Let it go
"I wanna be defined by the things that I love
Not the things I hate
Not the things I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of
The things that haunt me in the middle of the night, I
I just think that you are what you love"

"You're so deeply in love with Ryland, huh? But there is a song named Rare, can you explain the lyrics of Rare?"

"Baby, you've been so distant from me lately
And lately don't even want to call you "baby"
Saw us getting older
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high
Waiting up for you upstairs
Why you act like I'm not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don't care
Oh, why don't you recognize I'm so rare?
Always there
You don't do the same for me
That's not fair
I don't have it all
I'm not claiming to
But I know that I'm special, yeah
And I'll bet there's somebody else out there
To tell me I'm rare, to make me feel rare
Baby, don't make me count up all the reasons
To stay with you
No reason why you and I are not succeeding
At all
Saw us getting older
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (too high)
Waiting up for you upstairs
Why you act like I'm not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don't care
Oh, why don't you recognize I'm so rare? (I'm so rare)
Always there
You don't do the same for me
That's not fair
I don't have it all
I'm not claiming to
But I know that I'm special, yeah
And I'll bet there's somebody else out there
To tell me I'm rare, to make me feel rare (yeah, yeah)
I'm not gonna beg for you
I'm not gonna let you make me cry (make me cry)
Not getting enough from you
Didn't you know I'm hard to find? (Hard to find)
Saw us getting older
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (too high)
Waiting up for you upstairs
Why you act like I'm not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don't care (you don't care)
Why don't you recognize I'm so rare? (So rare)
I'm always there
You don't do the same for me
That's (that's)
Not (not)
Fair
I don't have it all (I don't have it all)
I'm not claiming to (I'm not claiming to)
I know that I'm special, yeah
And I'll bet there's somebody else out there
To tell me I'm rare, to make me feel rare
Oh yeah
So rare

"This album and the conversation we had tonight was so good, congratulations for your engagement, hope we can see the wedding." he said.

"Thank you for having us, Jimmy. You'll be the honor guest in my wedding." I said and we left the studio.

I sat on backseat holding Ryland's hands. He put his head on my shoulder. "I'm so proud of you baby." he said kissing my hand.

"Ryland I need to tell you something." I said. "Something serious."