c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

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  "Wait I didn't understand." said Mads and sat on the floor.

"I didn't understand too." said Jaden.

"Me too." said Noah.

"Don't worry, I didn't understand either." I said. "He proposed me. I rejected, I said we are too young for it but the truth is I don't trust him enough to marry him."

"Did he propose?" asked Mads with excitement. "Omg Lana, I think this time he is serious, he really loves you. God, just say yes and marry him. I can imagine your wedding, it will be so good, me and Jaden will be your bridesmaids."

"Mads stop." said Jaden. "She said she rejected and she got a reason to reject." Then he turned his face to me. "But you want to marry him,right?"

"Of course I want." I said. "You know how deep is my love. I just can't trust him after everything he did to me. He just don't know stuck with someone, his eyes are always looking for someone new, I don't want to get marry and divorce again."

Noah hold my hand. "Don't forget Lana, we are your friends and we are always wishing the best for you.To be honest if I were you, I wouldn't marry him too. As you told, he is not trustworthy."

"Come on." said Mads. "It's obvious you're in love, I can talk with Ryland about how you feel. I can be sure that he won't cheat again."

"How?" yelled Noah. "I'm sorry I didn't want to yell, I mean how you can be sure that? He already cheated 6 times, he can do for 7th."

"Yes but I'm good at understand if a man is good or not." she winked at Jaden.

  "I will call Ryland." said Jaden. "You will stay here with Noah, the others are not in home, don't worry, you don't have to see Bryce. Mads and I will go to your home and eat dinner with Ryland. We will talk about you and we will sure that he is good for you."

  "Okay." I said. We talked a while then at the 7 pm Mads and Jaden left the house.

"Are you hungry?" asked Noah. "I can get you food."

"It would be great." I said. "Burgers and cherry cola."

"Mads says cherry coke is like your arm. She says if you're about to fight with someone you'd be sipping cherry cola." said Noah.

"Oh, yes." I said. "But I'm not doing this for fight. I love cherry cola so much, that's why I usually drink cherry cola.Oh God, that means I usually fight too."

He laughed and ordered the food. We ate and talked a while. Then he went to kitchen and turned back with some beers and weeds.He handed me one bottle of beer.I grabbed it and drank, we smoke weed and I layed down to trampoline.He layed next to me. I put my head on his shoulder.

"Why it's gotta be like that?" I said. "Why I have to loose everyone I love?"

"Just a bad luck." he said. "Or bad decisions.You are always choosing the bad ones."

I laughed. "Probably. Look at Mads, she has Jaden."

"Jaden is not the only good person around you." he said.

"He loves Mads more than himself. He never lied to her, he never cheated on her. He is a perfect boyfriend, he will be a perfect husband and a father. He is the best man I know." I said.

"You must be blind." he said.

"Wait, what? Don't you think Jaden is perfect? Please don't talk to me." I turned my back to him. He went on top of me. "No, I'm not saying Jaden is bad, I'm saying he is not the only one. Look around there is others won't break your heart."

  "Well, I haven't met them." I said then all I know is he smashed his lips onto mines. I kissed him back even though I didn't want. He put his hands on my hips  and started to caressing with his thumb, then he started to kissing and sucking my neck, then I realized what is happening.

"Stop." I said but he didn't. "Noah stop." I said. He stopped and looked at my face.

  "It's not okay, I'm not okay with this." I said. "I don't love you more than a friend, I shouldn't kiss you. Also I'm not sure about breaking up, I can't cheat on Ryland just because I'm angry to him."

"He not deserve you." said Noah. "Lana you're just too perfect and all the boys you dated before just couldn't handle your perfectness. Your heart been broke so many times, let me heal you."

"Noah, I'm not into you. I'm sorry but I can't be your lover." I said. "Also you're high. You'll forget this tomorrow."

He hold my hands. "I don't wanna forget this, I don't wanna forget anything about you. Lana I don't care about you don't love me, just give me a chance, I promise I'll make you fall in love with me."

"Noah, I'm trying my best to not hurt your feelings. I already hurt Kio's and lost him. I don't wanna loose you too, the truth is I'm a stupid and I'm blindly in love with Ryland, I love him even though everything he has done and I might marry him. I'm sorry." I said. "I'll sleep in Jaden's room, please don't make me lock the door." I get up but stumbled, he hold me. "Don't." I said and went to Jaden's room, I wore one of his tshirts and slept on his bed thinking about Ryland and crying.