c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

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Interviewer: I do have a brother and I can't imagine losing him. I'm so sorry that you stopped talking with your sister. I can see your pain, your eyes are glossy.
Lana: I wish we could take it back everything. I'm really missing her.
Interviewer: What about Remember Me? Who should remember you?
Lana: Oh, Ryland. This is for Ryland.
Interviewer: Your whole album is for Ryland,I guess.
Lana: He hurt me so much, that's why I had a lot to write about. Anyways let's get into it.
(Dove Cameron-Remember Me)
Please remember me like this
Beautiful and talking shit
'Cause things get ugly way too quick
And right now we're just so perfect
So please remember me just like

In the may, I broke up with Bryce and right after I turned back to my real love, Ryland but I was sure that he will cheat on me again. All I want was from him to remember me beautiful. It's been two months, we are still together, hope we won't break up again.

No shoes dancing 'round your living room
Pulling off my t-shirt putting on a show for you
We look good in black and white
Sipping on a glass of white
Magnify the city lights, right?
Swimming naked in the deep end
Make you wanna freeze frame
Wait, okay I'm ready for my close up
Pin me like a poster
Faster Testarosa
Wait, just in case I am the one that gets away
Please remember me like this
Beautiful and talking shit
Cause things get ugly way too quick
And right now we're just so perfect
So please remember me like this
Beautiful and delicate
Cause things get ugly way too quick
And right now we're just so perfect
So please remember me just like this
Just like this
Just like
Running in the raindrops
City is a graveyard
Kissing at the trainstop
We don't care if they watch
Nothing wrong with PDA
You and me can't hardly wait
Till we get back to your place
Stealing half your ice cream
Talking 'bout a pipe dream
Singing karaoke, killing Backstreet
Touching in the photo booth
Something you can hold on to
Babe, just in case I'm the one that gets away
Please remember me like this
Beautiful and talking shit
'Cause things get ugly way too quick
And right now we're just so perfect
So please remember me like this
Beautiful and delicate
'Cause things get ugly way too quick
And right now we're just so perfect
So please remember me just like this

Interviewer: That was nice. But you have some depressing songs in your album, like Feel Something.
Lana: Oh, yes. Feel Something is the saddest song. Cause you know what is worse than being angry or sad, feeling nothing. For a while I never felt anything. It was like I never existed.
(Bea Miller-Feel Something)
If I could choose anything
I would be good and bad one day
I would fall into love and stay
Would fall into love

And it's not fair
I keep on writing a sequel to stories
I know that are not there
I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this

There was a time I was thinking about ending my life but I'd never do that. I don't wanna die. I do have only one life to live and I don't wanna leave this game too soon. I will get old, I will get ugly, I will find my real love and then if I'm old enough I can die.

I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
If I am telling the truth
Watching my friends break their hearts into two
Makes me jealous, I know that it's cruel
But what can you do?
And it's not fair
I keep on writing a sequel to stories
I know that are not there
I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
Can you tell me a secret
Can you tell me what's wrong with me
I know I should be angry
But I can barely feel a fucking thing
Can you tell me a secret
Can you tell me what's wrong with me
Can you tell me what's wrong with me
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel
Something really real so that I can really
Feel like a person again
Can you tell me a secret
Can you tell me what's wrong with me
I know I should be angry
But I can barely feel a fucking thing
Can you tell me a secret
Can you tell me what's wrong with me
Can you tell me what's wrong with me

Interviewer: What did you get through while you were with Bryce?
Lana: Being with someone you don't love is hard, being with Bryce is harder. I don't even wanna talk about it.
Interviewer: Do you have any songs for Bryce, except "Bury a Friend" ?
Lana: I do but in the next album. I have two songs for him in my upcoming album.
Interviewer: There is one song left in your album, "Bloodshot".
Lana: Okay, I will explain it. This is for Ryland, I think that's enough.
(Dove Cameron-Bloodshot)
I haven't been sleeping
Just stare at the fan all night, yeah
Got tired of dreaming
Running into you all the time
Even the good ones leave me messed up
Leave me aching, wanna wake up
So, I haven't been sleeping
Just stare at the fan all night
And wait it out
And my friends say I'm losing my mind
And my parents check in all the time
But it's harder to see you're not mine
With my bloodshot eyes
Bloodshot eyes
The colors are different
Foreign and beautiful, yeah
Got this white noise and music
Filling my head like the signal's broken
Losing focus, losing moments
Having conversation, hours wasting away
The colors are different
Foreign and beautiful, yeah, yeah
And my friends say I'm losing my mind
And my parents check in all the time
But it's harder to see you're not mine
With my bloodshot eyes
And I know that they're all probably right
And I know I should just say goodnight
But it's harder to see you're not mine
With my bloodshot eyes
Bloodshot eyes
Bloodshot eyes
Bloodshot eyes

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I'm sorry, I know I didn't update as I promise but my phone is not working, I wrote the chapter but it got deleted, then I rewrote but I couldn't upload the songs. I wrote the names, if you want you can check the songs. I'm really sorry about it...
Btw word count is: 5502, I guess that's the longest chapter I've ever wrote.