c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

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There was a time I was thinking like suicide is the only way to get rid of him. But I'm saner now, I know suicide is never a option. Suicide is a coward thing. If you're coward you don't fight, you run. I'm brave enough to live.

Step on the glass, staple your tongue (ahh)
Bury a friend, try to wake up (ah-ahh)

I had to keep my mouth shut, I had to hide my secrets, staple part is this. When I was dating with Bryce I lost a lot of friends. Bury a friend part is this.

Cannibal class, killing the son (ahh)
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna
What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Listen

Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art and make you a star
And get you connected?
I'll meet you in the park, I'll be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start that you'd fall apart
'Cause I'm too expensive
It's probably somethin' that shouldn't be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now (wow)
Calling security, keepin' my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury your friend right now

The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
'Cause I can't say no, no, I can't say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes won't close
And I can't say no, I can't say no

I had to do whatever Bryce says, I always thought it's like soul selling.

Careful
Step on the glass, staple your tongue (ahh)
Bury a friend, try to wake up (ah-ahh)
Cannibal class, killing the son (ahh)
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna
What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

Interviewer: well, that's creeped me out. What about Ozone?
Lana:
(Chase Atlantic-Ozone)
Really?
Je ne comprend pas
En fait je ne sais pas pourquoi tu me fait comme ça, je crois
Je mérite mieux que toi, tu sais
Mais n'importe ce que tu fais je te veux
Et je me ne comprend pas, vraiment pas
Pourquoi je fais ça?
Pourquoi tu te fais ça?
Franchement je ne sais pas, je sais plu
Ça doit arrêter, arrêter tout de suite

I born in New Orleans, I can speak French. The english lyrics are like this.
In fact, I don't understand why you do me like this.
Everytime.
I deserve better than you, you know?
But no matter what you do,I still want you.
And I don't understand why.
I really don't.
Why do you do that to yourself.
To be honest I don't know.
I don't know anymore.
It must stop.
It must stop right now.
This lyrics are obviously for Ryland. If I could choose a word to describe myself it would be vulnerable. Addison, Jaden, Mads, Kio and Ryland making me vulnerable. I can fight with all the world, but when it comes to them I became vulnerable. I can set the world on fire for them but can't hurt them.

I'm feeling numb off of all of these Xans, yeah
I know it's time that I fucked up your plans
I wish I was more of a man
I wish I was more of a man
Oh, no, you don't understand
I neglected you again

This is what Ryland told me once.

She said, "Don't forget I owe you one"
Ninety-nine cent dreams, maybe you could show me some
She told me she loved me, but I do not deserve your love
I put me above you and honestly I think I fucked it up
I don't know why