c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

• p a r t y •

Keep on dreaming, don't stop giving, fight those demons
Sell your soul, not your whole self
If they see you when you're sleeping, make them leave it
And I can't even see if it's all there anymore so

   I wish I could explain this part.

You're too mean, I don't like you, fuck you anyway
You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs
It hurts but I won't fight you
You suck anyway
You make me wanna die, right when I
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

Being me can only mean
Feeling scared to breathe
If you leave me then I'll be afraid of everything
That makes me anxious, gives me patience, calms me down
Lets me face this, let me sleep, and when I wake up
Let me breathe

  This part was for Kio. I begged him to don't leave me but he did.

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me

Interviewer: That was a good one, what about Lust?
Lana: Well, Lust is completely based on  my worst memory.
(Chase Atlantic-Lust)
Long walk through the forest, come and find me
Cold nights, dark sprites, sip it lightly
I don't even wanna fuck, I just like you
I thought I only liked drugs, I'm surprised too
Walk with me
I'm looking for honesty
Is that your girlfriend?
She was watching again, boy think that she's onto me
That doesn't bother me
I deal with this constantly
If she's got a problem then tell that
Lil' bitch to come over and talk to me

  One night, Kio came to home with his new girlfriend, Riley. I was too mad that night, I even lost myself. I ran to forest then Kio and Riley found me. Riley I'm sorry for calling you bitch.

I'm almost too high for this
I see your paranoia, I know it's scandalous
Take a little dip of the candy
You were supposed to get married
See, you were supposed to-

Once he told me that he wants to marry me but we broke up.

Hard drugs
No trust
Fuck love we can do this shit forever if it's lust, yeah
Listen up, yeah
Who cares?
I give up
I don't care if they don't like me, listen up
Don't give a fuck, yeah
I'll be falling in lust, yeah

This part is not about Kio, this is about Bryce.

See I been rolling like a ball for a week
With my friends on the benz
Lockjaw for me, yuh
I pray the medication slow me down
But that shit doesn't work when you're around
I get nervous
Like is it worth it?
I know I'm fucking up his life, it's on purpose
He doesn't deserve it
I can see it in your eyes,
You're the kind who'd let the flames take your life away

I really hurt Kio so much and he never deserved this. Now I'm wishing him a happy life with Riley.

Hard drugs
No trust
Fuck love we can do this shit forever if it's lust, yeah
Listen up, yeah
Who cares?
I give up
I don't care if they don't like me, listen up
Don't give a fuck, yeah
I'll be falling in lust, yeah

Interviewer: The Bryce part, you said fuck love we can do this shit forever if it's lust. I assume you didn't love Bryce, it was just lust.
Lana: Exactly. Whatever, the other song is Heathens. This one for Riley.
(Twenty Øne Pilots-Heathens)
All my friends are heathens, take it slow
Wait for them to ask you who you know
Please don't make any sudden moves
You don't know the half of the abuse
All my friends are heathens, take it slow
Wait for them to ask you who you know
Please don't make any sudden moves
You don't know the half of the abuse