elora pov
as i am walking upstairs i feel a sad sensation grow in my body
I walk in the room and I see mattia laying down on the bed with his back facing the door
I get on the bed crawling over him and he just pulls me closer to him
I kiss him pulling his face closer to me causes me to get on top of him
he rubbed the lower part of my back and moved his hand to my ass
he grabbed it and I just moaned
"are you okay?" mattia said breaking the kiss
"mhm. just keep kissing me" he say pulling him into the kiss again
"n-no" he said pulling away "really are you okay?"
"why wouldnt I be im just really horny right now" I shrug
he nodded no and just looked me in my eyes
how is he doing that
shit
he got me showing my feels to him
all I did was want to kiss so I wouldnt have to cry 🙄
I rubbed my cheek and a tear fell on his face
"I knew you weren't okay. what wrong?" he said sitting up
I sit next to him and he just rubbed my back
"i miss everything I had before" I say wiping my nose
"like before I kidnapped you and stuff"
I nod yes
he itches the back of his head
"well I want you to be happy so-" he sighs loudly
"do- do you want to go back?"
"back to what? I have been missing for 3 years. nobody is looking for me anymore"
"but you seemed happier that way, and you were. I just want you to stay like that"
"mattia I can be happy here too. but you make that hard sometimes, because I have to take care of everything"
"not everything" he scoffs
I look at him with a 'bitch really?" look
"never mind, everything" he giggles
"I have to make sure you dont kill anyone with you anger issues shit, make sure holden is okay, cook, clean, wash clothes, and make sure im doing everything i need to stay alive"
"Okay. how about this. I tell you something i never told anyone and you tell me something you never told anyone"
"Okay, I'll go first. I was born in Europe" I smile
"damn. never knew. but that was boring"
"fuck you too"
"I was a virgin the first time I fucked you"
"really?!" i say so shocked
"I actually had no idea what i was doing, thats why it took so long for me to put it in"
"I remember that! you said: wait. I'm doing something" I laugh
"yeah" he laughs along
"okay. um I had a sex dream about you before"
"really?!" he laughed
"yeah, it was to detailed"
"damn. I mustve fucked you good that night"
"idk maybe" I smile
"when I hit you and abuse you, i feel bad for myself because I dont mean it, but its just anger"
"where is the anger coming from tho"
"I messed up so many times in my life and I cant change it, so I take it out on you, and thats not fair"
"it isnt but at least you know its not okay"
"one more" he said towards me
"I sometimes have sex scenarios in my head about you"
"me too" he laughs
"at least we think about each other" i smile
"yeah"
we lay down and I cuddle him laying on his chest
"so how did you know i wasnt okay?"
"you dont moan like that" he smiles
i look up at him and kiss his cheek
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