Breathe (Editing)

𝟭𝟭. 𝗝𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗬

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| 𝙱𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚡 𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚊 𝙰́𝚕𝚊𝚟𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚣 |
| 𝚂𝚎𝚙𝚝 . 𝟸𝟺 |
| 𝙷𝚘𝚖𝚎 📍|

my mom is back.

She is back after 17 years. I started getting lightheaded, I couldn't do it all the pain and hurt from years ago came back. Her voice kept ringing through my head "I can't believe it's you" I couldn't take it anymore all these bad thoughts were running through my mind

YOUR NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY.
ITS ALWAYS YOUR FAULT.
EVERYONE IS DYING BECAUSE Of YOU.

I ran into the bathroom and found my old partner Xanax. I stared at the bottle and put it down and started pacing around and eventually starting hyperventilating. After a few minutes I calmed down and tried taking a nap but everyone was blowing up my phone, because I wasn't responding to anyone for hours. Tears came streaming down my face and went back to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and thought to myself.

I can't do it anymore

I wrote a little note and went in the bathroom and took out 10 pills and popped them.

I'm sorry

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| 𝙼𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚊𝚑 𝙻𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚛 𝙼𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚢 |
| 𝚂𝚎𝚙𝚝 . 𝟸𝟺 |
| 𝙸𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚛 |

"Why isn't she picking up" I started getting frustrated cause she isn't like this
"Man I don't know I hope she's ok" Isiah said getting worried too.

"I SWEAR BRO IF SHES NOT OK" I screamed about to cry

about 5 minutes later we pulled up and we started walking to her building. As we reached her door we realized it was unlocked, so we did what we usually and just walked in.

"BRONX" I yelled out getting worried

"BESTFRIEND IM EATING YOUR SNACKS" Isiah yelled knowing she will get mad

"dude something IS wrong she would be cussing us out by now" Isiah said panicking

I started walking to the back realizing her bathroom light was on.

"Bro-" I stopped in my tracks realizing she was passed out on the floor with a note in her hand and a almost empty medicine bottle.

"NO NO BRONX YOU BETTER BE OKAY LUCKY CALL THE AMBULANCE" I said letting a tear come out my eye

She has to be okay I can't live without her

About 2 minutes later the EMT asking all these questions pissing me off
(Emergency medical technician .. ouu a bitch smart)

"DUDE I DONT KNOW WE GOT HERE SHE WAS PASSED OUT ITS YOUR JOB TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED" I screamed frustrated

"Okay sir calm down we just need her name, DOB, and health problems" the EMT asked

"Bronx Natalia Álavarez, October 8, 2002, She suffered with depression a couple years ago" I said getting into the back of the ambulance with her.

"Lucky follow us" I said tossing him the keys.
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| 𝙰𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚕 |

".. Im sorry I let you down Messiah but she came back and I couldn't do it anymore . And hey mane say mane I love you forever and always
xoxo,
ya best bitch/baby mama/ bsf"
I kept reading over and over pacing back and forth.