˗ˏˋ 𝓟𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 - 𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐘𝐔𝐔 ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓 - 涙が止まらないよ ˎˊ˗

DEAR READERS
OF ❝ PRETTY LIES ❞、

i apologize in advance of
what you're about to read 。
very recently up until now 、
i've realized that i have been
feeling this way because of
my book by the help of my
amazing friends in whom
i'm so grateful to have 。

as of yesterday 、7/13/20 、
i tried to motivate myself to
write more for the next chapter
❝ angel's touch ❞ 。i decided to
have watched a movie that talked
about the topic of anorexia nervosa 。
although it was the not the first
time watching it 、i had a different
experience from watching it the
second time 。

rewatching the movie had brought
up many bad memories for me 。
and although no one here really knows
my background on anorexia nervosa
( which i really want to continue to
keep private until the end of ❝ pretty
lies ❞ 、and i hope you all can respect
that ) 、i was crying about it and it
made me question myself ( my recovery
and being conflicted with my feelings )

this isn't the first time something in
which i tried to for this book has made
me feel this way 。in the past 、multiple
things that i tried to use as motivation were
making me have bad memories but here's
the thing:

i use my past with anorexia nervosa
to reflect onto hiromi saito 。

it's how i write 。with the help of my
friends 、i realized that because of my
writing on this story 、i've been constantly bringing these bad memories which really takes a toll on my mental health 。

and because of this realization 、
unfortunately ❝ pretty lies ❞ chapters
will be coming out  later than their due dates 。i'm sorry to anyone who i have disappointed 。

and in all honestly after this realization 、
i feel kinda scared to write 。i really don't
want to have those bad memories again or
to feel like i maybe shouldn't have recovered and stayed in that horrible state i was in 。

however 、i will not be discontinuing
this book 。i refuse to do that to myself
and to you guys 。this book is extremely
close to my heart and will have a happy
ending 。

all i ask for is time 。i plan to take
writing slowly and i hope that all of
you readers will be willing to wait 。

again 、i sincerely apologize from
the bottom of my heart if i've angered
you with my decision on now taking
updates slowly 。but 、i believe it's
for the best for all of us 。

thank you for taking the time
to read this 。i appreciate each
and very one of you and the support
that you show to this book 。

there's also some other reasons that i want to take updating this book slowly for the sake of the book itself ( truly figuring out the whole psychology of it 、the journey of hiromi finally accepting herself 、figuring out how in this book it'll show normalization of plastic surgery 、and so much more ) 。

i really hope this all makes sense 。
i'm not really good at explaining and
i specifically don't like talking about
my past with anorexia nervosa 、but
i want to say thank you to all of you 。

my readers mean the world to me 、
and i'm glad that you guys enjoy the
stories that i write 。as i'm taking it
slow on writing 、i'll also try getting
better at it to 。

i love you guys so much ♡
mahal kita 、je t'aime 、
我爱你 、and 愛してる 。

˗ˏˋ ALL OF MY LOVE 、

MRS-USHIJIMA
牛島さん ˎˊ˗