Random Stories by IntrovertFeline

To The Person Once I've Cherished

Unspoken Words

My morning is not complete when there's no greetings I can see on the screen of my phone.
Concern words fills with sugar and care even you felt my existence once in a week.

I peel of my darkness into bright colors because you're making me happy. Then.

A smile and sometimes a grumpy expression on my face are attatched on my face because of your jokes, your puns and even your darkest thoughts are read through a message.

I did something that doesn't make me comfortable. I tried to change myself. My real self. I made an effort even it's just a simple gifts for showing your gratitude and for making your existence special on your birthday. I sent a voice message while singing even my throat is itching. I felt embarassed after letting it send to you.

I once cried because you keep on teasing me and I've shown you my sensitive side. I'm so sorry.

Those meals that made me satisfied yet I didn't finished it, it was a new experience for me even I felt I'm in danger. A lot of eyes spying might be an issue. I'm so "bilib!" to myself that I've been eating out with a guy and a lot of white lies has made and I really felt sorry for what I've did. I always pray to God to forgive me for all of the sins I did and I just want to protect myself.

I once said to myself that I will hide my true identity. But I've shown you my real side. I break a wall that I had for myself. I got afraid that you won't like me but you're fine with it. I had that childish side, that lazy attitude, I'm slow and I'm sensitive like a child. But you've understand me then. I feel so thankful for it.

I've seen your terrible character but I discarded it because it was the real you. You're a monster with a sweet side as I've observed.

I have no any experience of having in a relationship with anyone but once you made me feel like I had.
It gives really gives me headache. So, don't test me anymore. I don't want to waste my time and effort for the person that has no mutual feelings and interest towards me.

Take care of yourself. My heart is healing as of now. I've cried for you for so many times even you didn't know it. I'm so sorry for fooling myself for having interest on the person that I never had. Don't worry about me because all of your advices are noted. Thank you for all of it.