you make me hate what i love
that's how much control you have over me
you don't even realise it
what you're doing to me
i've always feared that i'll become you
yet somehow that doesn't stop me from becoming you
fearing the worst doesn't stop the worst from coming
why is it that i fear becoming you
yet love you at once?
your love for me
sickens me
no one should love me that much
not me, never me
loving me will only hurt you
is it horrible that your heartbreak brings me relief?
"good,"
i find myself thinking
"now you understand,
now you'll stay away"
i really hope you'll stay away
i'm not worth it
i leave behind nothing to this world
so why should anyone put in any effort?
"a human being's desire,"
i read
"it's to never be forgotten
forever."that part makes me blink
the next part makes me never blink
"that is why we write our names
in a foggy mirror."
or on a school desk
or when we think of anything to write
i will be forgotten
i don't affect the world
(if i do,
it won't be due to my kindness)
history won't write my name down
i bring nothing to no one
if i am equal to nothing
then why am i here?
i am the same as nothingness
i am nothingness
YOU ARE READING
lowercase lament
Poetrya collection of poems, not bound by rules, nor themes, nor length. little pieces of everything, strung together into a calm chaos. a myriad of a stranger and a lover's confessions. a mystery, and a timeless entity.