American Love Affair (5 Seconds of Summer fan fiction)

Chapter 38

"Well, it's not completely tangible. So we have to go somewhere first. The patio?" He asks.

I nod, biting my lip. Outside, the air is crisp, maybe forty degrees. I regret only wearing a tee shirt. Calum shuffles outside in his grey sweatpants, dark blue sweatshirt, and moccasins. He pulls a guitar, planted from under the outdoor coffee table. Then he motions for me to sit down across from him.

"Cal, did you write me a song?" I ask, rubbing my hands over my arms.

He nods grinning. "Yeah, it was Luke's idea. Not the song, but to give it to you. I burned it to a CD too so you can always have it, until our album releases. Okay. Here goes."

He smiles and brushes the air out of his eyes, before running his fingers over the strings. I stare, mesmerized, at his long fingers. Then his voice sings out into the darkness.

"(A/N: *To the tune of 5SOS' Amnesia it's not supposed to sound like a breakup, it's supposed to be a you're in another country and I miss you song)

I thought about the places we used to hang out when we dated

Thought about our first kiss how it felt the way you tasted

Even though you tell me that you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely, because I'm not beside you

When they write those words that hurt you do you read the ones I wrote you

Sometimes I stop to wonder when you said goodbye

If what we have is real how can you be fine

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you said you had to leave me

I remember you promised only for a while

And the bags you left behind one day you'd need them

Like every single kiss and every smile

I wish one day you'd call and say you need me

So I can hear your voice if even through the phone

I won't forget the way it felt sleeping next to you

So many memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures you always send me they still live inside my phone

You know I like to see them, you know sometimes I feel alone

And all my friends keep asking when you'll come back around

It hurts me when you're not here, it hurts me when you're gone

It's hard hearing your name when I haven't seen you in so long

When are you coming back now, no need to be shy

If what we have is real how are you always fine

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you said you had to leave me

I remember you promised only for a while

And the bags you left behind one day you'd need them

Like every single kiss and every smile

I wish one day you'd call and say you need me

So I can hear your voice if even through the phone

I won't forget the way it felt sleeping next to you

So many memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me

Our months apart only just a dream

I'd hold you closer than I ever did before

You'd never slip away

You'd never hear me say

I remember the day you said you had to leave me

I remember you promised only for a while

And the bags you left behind one day you'd need them

Like every single kiss and every smile

I wish one day you'd call and say you need me

So I can hear your voice if even through the phone

I won't forget the way it felt sleeping next to you

So many memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

No I'm really not fine at all

Tell me this is just a dream

'Cause I'm really not fine at all."

"Calum...I love it. That was amazing," I tell him breathless.

He blushes slightly in the dark, but a grin plays across his face.

"Thank, it's not done obviously and I haven't written in everything, I also think it sounds like you actually left me, but...Happy Birthday."

"Thank you. This actually means so much to me. No ones ever given me such a thoughtful gift before. It was always stuff stuff stuff."

"I'm glad you like it." He replies tugging on the hem of his shirt.

"I love it." I correct him.