To: Dude

"Thank you for that question, I think that it is an honor and privilege to study free in this univeristy. Because of this we were given a chance to fulfill our dreams and become who we want to be. It is a proof that education is not just for the one who can afford but also for those who are willing to learn. I believe that manileños are not just gwapo but also matalino. Thank you"

Isang masigabong palakpakan ang nangibabaw pagkatapos sagutin ni Rj ang huling tanong. At kanina pa din ako pagewang gewang dahil sa pagtulak ni gelai.

"Beks ang gwapo niya! Tapos ang witty pa ng sagot niya" gelai raise both of her hand "uwian na, sa department of psychology na mangagaling ang Mr. University this year"

I smile a litlle bit.

"Oy.. oy.. bat ka ngumingiti?" Malisyosong tanong ni gelai sa akin.

"Wala lang" i replied trying to avoid her question

"Nagustuhan mo no?" She form an imaginary stick and slap my back. That dirty grin she's giving talking about Rj's costume earlier. Theme is alice in wonderland influenced of Jhonny depp's character hawak ang kanyang baston.

"Manahimik ka nga!" I want to tape her mouth puro kahalayan na lang ang lumalabas.

"Kala ko ba move on ka na?" Gosh i hate her! She's teasing me again.

"Duh? Oo naman"

"Bat namumula ka?" I hide my face and breathe heavily. I didn't bother to answer her because my body cannot lie.

It cannot lie because why am i moving on into something that never really existed from the start.

"Pero atleast worth it naman. Galing ng pambato natin" she cheerfully says then bump my shoulder.

I look at my wristwatch and it's already 11pm. What am i still doing here. Im fooling myself if i say that im here for the sake of my department.

Maybe it's him..
I want to see him.

- - -

I always knew that i lack in everything. Looks, confidence and im not that smart. But he have it all. That's why i run away like the other times that we got to see each other. Im too cautious about my looks, what am i supposed to say to him and how am i gonna react. And there's a thing that pinned in my mind. That he will never take interest in such insecure gay like me.

Pinning ceremony of junior psychology student and we gather in a vacant room to kill time because all of the professors are busy in the event.

"Grabe no? Parang last year lang tayo yung nasa pinning" gelai said while looking at the ceiling

"Tapos ngayon ilang kembot na lang ga graduate na tayo!" She added

"Yan ay kung ga graduate tayo" she stop and glare at me. Mukhang sumagi sa ala-ala niya na nay problema pa kami sa thesis.

"Ang nega mong bakla ka!" Inirapan niya ako at naki jamming na lang sa mga kaklase naming nag pa practice ng kakantahin sa event mamaya.

We stop when our class president notice something odd outside

"Guys lumilindol ata?" Pinakiramdaman naming lahat. At nung nakumpirma namin ay kanya-kanya na kaming hakot ng mga gamit at saka lumabas ng building. Medyo may kalumaan na kasi itong univeristy namin kaya nag panik halos lahat ng estudyante.

Tumigil naman na ang pagyanig at andito pa rin kami sa labas sa ilalim ng tirik na araw. Nag a-antay ng announcement kung papauwiin na ba kami. Kawawa lang yung mga junior dahil hindi pa sila tapos sa pinning ceremony nila.