“So it’s official it’s been three weeks” I whisper more to myself than anyone. My words catch everyone’s attention. Everyone knew what I meant. “three weeks it’s been since I found out your gone three weeks I’ve been trying to find out what’s wrong three weeks without you is three weeks too long but three weeks I’ve spent trying to move on” the words stung me but made me feel Calm at the same time. “That was beautiful Mercedes” I say trying not to cry and holding back any negative emotion. I try my hardest to smile it doesn’t work. SHE IS DEAD I hear the worlds ringing in my head the more I try to ignore them the louder it gets. I break, tears flow down my face. “I miss her I want her back!” I look over to see shae walking over to me she hugs me I hug her back not wanting to ever let go. I keep crying I can’t control it. I can’t control anything anymore. I can’t control the nightmares I have. Us saying goodbye you saying you love me. A flash. You tearing apart the drama room with such anger I yell at you to stop but it’s like you can’t hear me. A flash. You stand there the rope around your neck you extend your arm showing me a peace sign you say you love me then let yourself drop mid fall. A flash. I stand below you lifeless body asking why you did it. I can’t control myself when people make homophobic comments in the hall. I can’t control. I continue to cry def to my friends comforting words looking back In my mind remembering her smile remembering the moment I found out remembering the first time I seen my friends since I heard about Hannah I remember the pain we all felt but I also remember the endless amount of love flowing from one person to another I remember how we found always to laugh and smile I remember my friends I remember Hannah
I snap back into reality only to whisper four words
“I love you all”
