Precious

What Is It?

"Yes. I mean, No. Urrhhh… I don't know what's happenin… nnnggghhhh"

Before I could finish my sentence, Forth captured my lips. This feels good. Really good. Best. I closed my eyes. 

I just heard the sound our saliva and lips were making. I didn't know how I got engrossed in that moment. 

The kiss was best. The best I had ever had. Actually I haven't let any girl kiss me on my lips. This means… Forth was my first kiss? 

Forth pulled away and I inhaled a long breath. I didn't even know I was out of breath. My eyes were still closed. When I opened it, I saw the brown orbs pulling me inside them. Forth moved his face towards mine and tilted my head to get an access of my neck. He sucked there. 

His sucking sent an electric wave from neck to Belly button. With his head removed from my neck, he captured my lips again. 

I tried to open my eyes but Forth's palm held my head from back and titled our heads to get better access. Soon, I felt the heat of another body, Forth's body near my chest. I felt comfortable. 

I felt his hand under my right thigh. He gently lifted it and turned my body. I don't know how but we were still kissing and now I was sitting on his laps with my both legs on either side of his body. I wanted more. I tried to slip my tongue but couldn't.

I felt both his hands embracing my back and pulling me closer. It feels good in between my thighs. I liked the friction it made with Forth's. Forth started squeezing and kneading my butt cheeks. 

I heard my moans melting in his mouth. He had entered my mouth with his tongue. He sucked the life out of me. 

I was unable to breathe. I beat his shoulders with my hands. He pulled out his face and let me breathe. 

He cupped my face and kissed me on my lips. 

"Beam." He called my name and my heart started beating fast. "Before… I Umm… I wasn't kidding." 

Huh? What does he mean? 

"I'm serious. Be my boyfriend." He said, looking at me with those brown orbs. 

Can I say no? No. No. I mean. I don't want to. I mean I want to be his boyfriend. 

"Isn't it too fast?" I asked. I don't know where it came from. 

"It's too late already." He said. 

"Huh?" I asked. We just… 

"I have a crush on you since last year." I felt abnormal heat on my cheeks that I never felt before. "I… I was scared to… lose your friendship. Because, you…" 

"...are the Casanova. A player. And straight." I completed his sentence. Right. How could someone like him deserve someone like me? "I'm sorry." I apologized to him. I am someone who doesn't deserve a man like him. I shouldn't have awakened his hopes. He must have feel…

"No. You were… You still are out of my league. You… Don't deserve a man like me. You deserve better than me." He was saying but I cut him.

"No." I shook my head. "No. It's me who don't deserve you." I said. 

"No. Beam. You're the best. You could be the first choice of anyone." He said. 

"I… I'm never the first choice. Of anyone." I didn't know how I cried and told him everything I felt a few days ago. How sad I felt. How I got drunk. 

"Beam. Let me court you. Please?" He requested. "I'll… I'll try. Please let me…" 

"You… Wayo… Wayo was your…" 

"No, Beam. Wayo was just someone I cared for like a brother but trust me, I… I only had you in my heart."

Would I be called selfish if I accept? 

And then suddenly reality hit me. What am I even thinking? Boyfriend? Courting? I'm a man and he's too. Not that I'm a homophobic. My friends have boyfriends too. But… I… and Forth were… no… we still are… straight… or am I not? Or we both are not? What if he's just kidding like earlier? 

"You can go Forth. I… I need time to think. I'm not in my right mind. For this moment… this might feel good. It feels good…" 

"Yeah… it's good. See, our juniors agree too." Forth said as he held his hand in mine and let me feel our private parts… 

Did my body just react to his touches and his to mine? 

What is it? What is it? What is it?? 

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(A/N : How's the update?

How are you all? I'm feeling less stressed and more free. I don't have any submissions or tasks to be done. So far, I don't have any exams coming. I'm just chilling. I love my life this way.)