𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚞𝚜 + 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚠𝚎 + 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚢𝚣 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜.

𝚔𝚒𝚖 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚞.

type; kinda angsty, kinda cute. i think?? oh and, all lowercase for aesthetic purposes
word count; 496
pronouns; female
requested; no
title; numb
written June 23rd, 2020 (by star)
not yet edited
a/n: i legit wrote five imagines last night in under three hours, and this was one of them i-

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have you ever felt so sad that you're numb? well, that's how i feel. there's no one reason for it... i'm just sad. i guess. 

i haven't talked to anyone in weeks. i don't even know how to reach out of my own bubble anymore.

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but then he shows up. says he's worried for my well being. says he tried to call me everyday. i say nothing. i turn away from him. i sit on the couch and he sits beside me. we stay silent for a few minutes. he looks unsure. and then, he wraps an arm around me and pulls me into him. i don't say anything, but my heart aches. he doesn't know. he doesn't know how i feel or why i've been so distant. i'm an island compared to him. i slowly tuck my head into his chest and curl my legs up under me. and then, i cry. it sounded so loud in my head but it was only a whimper in the real world. he puts a hand on the back of my head and starts stroking my hair. he says nothing.

for a split second i consider that he might like me the way i like him. i banish these thoughts. he doesn't like me that way. there isn't any possibility... and it's so heartbreakingly wonderful that i'm setting myself up for disaster. i haven't cried in days. yet here i am, crying in his arms.

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hours later, he picks me up. i've long since stopped crying by this time. he holds my thighs steadily and i wrap my arms around him. he doesn't ask what's wrong. i don't offer an answer.

he sets me on the toilet. the cover is no comfort for the hard porcelain. he asks if i have to go. i shake my head. he washes his hands, then puts toothpaste on my toothbrush. his thumb swipes over my bottom lip. he tells me to open up. i comply. he then brushes my teeth and holds my hair back when i spit into the sink. he picks me up again.

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he sets me in my rolling desk chair while he pulls my covers back and sets my pillows right. i barely found the strength to make the bed this morning. once the covers are pulled back, he picks me up again and carefully places me on top of the soft sheets. he pulls the comforter over me. he starts to turn away. i reach out to him,

"minsu,"

i start, my voice is hoarse. he stops and waits.

"i- i love you. please stay.

his face spreads into a smile, and he shakes his head playfully.

"i love you too, princess. of course i'll stay."

he reaches back.

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