Hold You Accountable (Published) | ✓

Kabanata 31

I pouted while examining his features. "Kapag nakikita kita, nam-miss ko jowa ko."

Nauntog ako sa headrest ng shotgun seat dahil sa bigla niyang pag-preno. Medyo nagising ang diwa ko kaya tumingin ako sa kanya.

"May dumaan na white lady," he said which made me widen my eyes in shock.

"Buti hindi mo nasagasaan." I said, unconsciously.

He exasperatedly sighed as he lower his head. Ibinalik niya rin muli ang tingin sa kalsada at nag-drive na ulit.

Patuloy lang siya sa pag-drive habang ako ay nakatingin lang sa kanya. He was serious even it was too dark to see his full face. All I can see is his expression. He was frowning at something.

Napatingin ako sa kamay niya, lalo na sa kanyang pulso. A familiar bracelet was on his wrist.

"May ganyan din ako...Pero stethoscope..." I mumbled while looking at his bracelet.

It was the almost the same bracelet I once had...Pero iba 'yung pendant niya, it was a calculator.

He didn't say anything but he looked like he wanted to say something.

I can't help but reminisce because of him. I miss Sath so much. Pero hindi pa ako handa. I still think I'm not capable of loving him when I'm just a wreckage.

"I hope he gets to eat blueberry cheesecake whenever he feels sad..." ngumiti ako at sinandal ang ulo ko sa may bintana ng kotse.

Lumandas na naman ang mga luha galing sa mga mata ko. It was probably the alcohol. Now I know why people get drunk when they have problems, so they can blame everything on the alcohol.

Inabutan ako nung lalaki ng tissue nang mag-pula ang traffic lights. Natawa naman ako dahil sa ginawa niya. Even his gestures are like Sarathiel's!

Inabot ko ito at agad na pinunasan ang mga luha ko. This was a gesture of Sarathiel. He always gives me tissue whenever I cry or even provide his own handkerchief.

"You remind me of my ex!" I said, tilting my head to his direction.

"I am your ex," sarkastikong sagot niya. I pretended I was shock.

"Lasing lang ako pero di ako bulag! You don't look like Sath! You look like a shadow!" A blurry shadow!

A shadow that looked like my ex. I laughed to myself. Wala kasing ilaw at hindi ko maaninag ang buong mukha niya.

The traffic light turned green and he went to another direction. He stopped over a nearby cliff. Walang masyadong tao at halos bakante ang daan.

I stiffened at his sudden movement.

Wait, itatapon na ba niya ako sa bangin?

I wasn't expecting him to lean forward to my face and I held my breath when he did.

His long lashes, brown eyes and perfect jaw made me realized that he really was Sarathiel. He was right infront of me.

My Sath...

I feel like tearing up.

"Do you believe me now?"

"Sarathiel?" my voice came out as weak.

Unti-unti na namang lumandas ang mga luha ko. I feel like there are always onions around me. Palagi na lamang akong umiiyak. I always cry at the smallest thing.

He stopped the engine and opened the lights inside the car. He leaned towards his seat as he closed his eyes.

"Let's talk," humugot siya nang malalim na hininga.