Through it All 💕

visting And Warning ⚠

After Seb left I decided to run a quick warm bath for myself, I needed it because my head was throbbing , I have so much on my plate and Seb coming into the picture is not as I expected, I made the decision to be cordial with him to avoid any future confrontation with him and dammit I need to hire a private investigator.

When I finally fell asleep, I had a terrible dream about my parents car accident and it turned out darker when I dreamed that I was involved in a car accident and I was screaming for help, I woke up in sweat and decided to be extremely careful with what I found out .

I prayed and hoped for God's intervention especially with the way things are going, I'm losing it gradually.

walking out of my bed I decided to go through my work schedule, this was purely holiday vacation but what can I do when sleep has finally eluded me and it's too early in morning.

celine will definitely get my PA fired once she discovered I was working from here, I really trust my PA because I know she's very diligent and can handle my appointment before we return back but she's doing a great Job getting me updated.

Gosh I miss my work already and troubles are staring up in the air
I quickly went through the email she sent to me and replied few and decided to keep some until I resume.

But I startled up when my phone inbox peep notifications and she noticed it was a message from Derrick "Good morning sunshine, You're my mirror of beauty and I can't just stop thinking about you "she read to her self blushing, forgetting the jealousy she felt in her heart when she saw him dinning with another woman but then she realized that she was just been Childish .

Derrick was not answerable to her and he's fit to do as he wished even though she can't denial the passion and feelings for him .

"we will have another busy day today, will be going out with my sisters later, I really appreciate the message you sent to me "she replied .

"Can we have dinner tonight... I really want to spend time with you and get to know you better "His second message peeps up on her screen.

Why is he making everything so difficult she can't afford to mess up the fashion deal with zantrov and checking her emotions will really go a long way to help her handle things .

"Am sorry Derrick but that won't be possible, I'm on a vacation with my sisters and we intend to spend time together before leaving "she replied him and decided to switch off her phone to avoid any further distraction from him.

Sat down on the couch breathing heavily, I don't know if I have to be happy or sad about the fact that I just turned down his dinner request.

No , probably no.

I close my eyes and held on to my phone.

Should I dial his phone number again?

I breathed out again and decided it was for the best I will let things be for now and concentrate on Powermart after this vacation anything can happen.

I just have to prepare for the worst.

After I went through the last report Vivian sent I went straight to bed hoping to get a little more sleep before celine and Gift match into my room.

I tossed and turned in my bed. I tried desperately to sleep but Sebastian's words kept popping back into my head.

I huffed and got up from my bed, I ran a hand through my hair trying to figure out what to do.

No matter what happens in our lives we can never let our past to determine our future.

I needed some fresh air, how irony life can be, this vacation was supposed to be about me forgetting everything and having a good time but here I am stocked in the middle of the same confusion that got me here in the first place.

One of the amazing thing about been in the presidential suite is the fact that it has his private balcony with a breathtaking view .

Walking towards the balcony I decided to pour myself a cup of wine to help calm my sanity and hopefully the shopping will help me relax from everything.

Sitting quietly deeply lost in my world of how simple my life was few weeks back and here it's turned upside down.

Love is beautiful and I can't deceive myself about how much I have missed that part of me.

Derrick is bringing back that part of me I thought will never resurface but deep down in my heart, I know that the only problem I have is if I could ever trust anyone Man with my heart and at that moment I have come to realize that Derrick wasn't the problem.

I need to work on myself
I need to learn to trust again
And most importantly I need to learn to start loving again and the best person who could help me get over myself was God.

Rampaging through my suite case, I picked up my Bible opened to Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Vs 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Vs 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Wow I felt so relieved.... I went down on my knees and prayed that God will give me the peace I so much desire.

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Wow... Positive step
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