When Stars Collide

Chapter Twenty-Three

Galaxy

 

I sit in the center of the couch while everyone looks at me for a response. I don’t have one. How can I have a response when it’s something beyond my control? They expect me to know what to do, well I don’t. Never have I ever received mass hate like this. I’m not even going to respond to them. C’mon I kissed their idol obviously they’re pissed because Matt hasn’t said anything. What can he say we aren’t dating, but we kissed. That girl. She exposed the picture and twitter has blown up. Sure there are supporters. We already have a ship name “Malaxy”. It’s cute. It honestly is, but this is so much to take in. Matt lost a couple thousand fans because of this. It’s not just me they’re hating on, it’s him too. We can’t act like this is isn’t affecting him too. He’s been as silent as I have and he’s sitting across from me, and not once has anyone asked how he felt. They treat me like a child, like I can’t be left alone or something will happen. It’s nice but right now i’m sure as hell over it.

“I need air.” Matt says as he jumps up bolting for the door. He slams it causing me to jump. He hasn’t said a word to me since he came back to find me drinking, also with Nash. It’s really no big deal. It shouldn’t be, we aren’t exactly together. I need to go talk to him. I haven’t gotten his opinion on this situation we found ourselves in. I sort of tuned everyone out Cameron is still beside me trying to get me to speak, they’re practically begging. I’ve been silent for a complete hour. I push myself out of my seat and rush out the door. Leaving the boys stunned.

 

I’m cold i’ve been walking around for an hour. The sun is starting break up the pitch black sky. I’ve been looking for Matt but i’m not sure where he would be. My phones been going off like crazy, and I assume Matt’s has been too. Oh Matt where can you be? I hope you’re okay. I’m getting hungry. I look up to find a cafe just a few feet away. I walk in and stand in line and look at what they are selling. I decide on a banana chocolate chip muffin, a bagel in case I find Matt, and a coffee. It’s early in the morning about five in the morning or so. I definitely need this coffee if i’m going to stay up and find Matt. The lady hands me my order. I turn around and scan the room hoping to see Matt. No luck.

I walk down the street hoping and praI carefully walk towards the bench. His hood is up and his head is down.

“I’m sorry but I don’t feel like taking any pictures. I’m not in the best mood. I love you and I hope you understand.” He says without sparing a glance.

“You know I am a huge fan of yours, but I won’t be needing the picture. I’ll just be needing you and needing to know if you’re okay.” I say softly while placing my hand on his back as I take a seat beside him. He looks up and looks me in my eye. It’s not hard to tell he’s hurting. I give him a sympathetic smile as I hand him the bagel. He gives me a questioning look and reluctantly takes the bag. He looks into the bag and the brightest smile makes his way on to his face. His smile melts my heart, heck it can melt anyone’s heart. He looks up to me and his eyes are watering, his smile fades and is replaced by a look of hurt. Seeing him suddenly so sad makes me wonder what I have done wrong.

“Matt are you okay.” I say the sound of concern in my voice is very concerned. I quickly grab onto him and pull him in a hug. His suddenly reaction takes me by surprise. “I thought you liked bagels i’m sorry.”

“I do. I really do. You poor thing thats not why i’m sad.” He says while lightly rubbing my back. He takes a deep breath and pulls away from me. His hands moving from my back to my hands. He looks me in my eyes.

“You can’t leave me in the dark. I want to help but I can’t if you don’t tell me what’s wrong. So tell me?”

“Lex. I’m so sorry this happened to you. It’s beyond ridiculous how so many people can hate on such a beautiful, bright, wonderful girl like yourself. It kills me to know it’s all because of me.”

“It’s not your fault Matt. You know that. It’s beyond our control.”

“It’s not just that. Lex you have to be an idiot not to see that we ruined your life. You had the perfect life until we all came into the picture. Seriously you had the life I would’ve killed for, but our selfishness of wanting to be around you killed it. You have such an amazing talented family, you had a great maybe not so great anymore boyfriend, which is also our fault. I can’t even get the words out of my mouth of what I want to say because you’re so busy just being yourself you don’t even realize how speechless you leave people. The point is we ruined your perfect life. We did and it hurts to know that i’m partly the reason. I live my life to make people happy and here I am taking so many people’s happiness away, risking theirs just for mine. I hurt the fans not telling them I was interested in you or anything before that picture leaked. I hurt so many people trying to make myself happy. You would’ve been just fine if I hadn’t met you.” He says still staring at my hands. “And I’m so sorry.”

“Matt that doesn’t matter. That part of my life is over. You gave me a beautiful beginning to the next chapter of my life. I absolutely do not regret meeting any single one of you. You opened to my eyes and what I want to do next with my life. I  may have lost someone important in my life but I gained so much more. Matt you guys may have just been the greatest thing to ever enter in my life. You also must understand that your happiness matters. The fans will get over it. If they truly care about you like we do, Matt they won’t care who you’re with as long as you’re happy. Trust me. Whatever happens Matthew Lee Espinosa I got you.”