I wish that you would love me

CHAPTER 1

College life has always suck for you until got to meet that righteous person who made your entire college life a better place. As a science student you've been told not to expect much from your colleagues neither did you experience it. It's not like you didn't try but everyone in your class were either "too busy studying to make friends" or the "already ganged up" ones
    There was this guy in your class who always used to sit quietly on the first bench, 'too shy to talk to girls at their age' type, too engrossed in his class homeworks and projects he never got noticed by any girl although the bio lecturer won't stop eyeing him from up to down. lowkey he was gay for him.
    I mean same he looks deadly gorgeous..
  "Oh wow! His name is Park jimin"
 My reaction when i heard his name being called out by our professor for the life-cycle presentation.
       If looks could kill, i'd have died by now.                Damn Jimin.
     One time, we were selected as project partners.
Who told know this would be the biggest Turning point of our lives.
  So yeah that's how me and jimin became chums
    Jimin is a multitalented guy...would always take parts in sports, athletic, swimming to hosting events.
   Can't believe the shy jimin i knew was actually him now. He's become a whole (meal)different person.
    Crush would be an understatement, my love for jimin was immerse, loyal and intense.
   He would always tease me flexing his biceps and triceps to half naked mirror selfies (that i never asked neither did i complain tho) from his iconic royal bathroom.
     Yes. He was rich enough to get girls on his side and sexy enough to pull them on their knees straight. But he was afraid of making commitments and that's the reason why he didn't have many friends. He never had a girlfriend before he told me.
      Until he met Ariel, his gym class mate.
  When i found out about this from someone else's mouth, abruptly as if my life has no value now...as if my life has been a lie...felt like I'm on the rim of falling.
   He had me in his worst times how could he not notice that I've been liking him like crazy since day one.
 I started to neglect him at lectures and not receiving any of his calls to blocking him from my WhatsApp.
  Jimin said he wanted to meet me that he misses me. I took this as an opportunity to confess my love towards him which was never a normal amount.
I had to remove it all from my heart, from my mind which was killing me from the inside. Thinking and scolding myself for not being enough for him.
  At our favourite cafe, we decided to meet. He brought his girlfriend along with him which was totally unexpected. Wow, my situation couldn't get any worse. "Why are they so clingy" "eww" my inner self was cringing hard.
  So i didn't talk about how i felt and how he made me feel about myself lately, wished it won't turn into grudges towards him, I've had enough watching them all giggly as if i don't even exist there. I've had to halt myself from tearing apart. Yes, get used to it i said myself.
 The whole day went awkward. Atleast now it's all clear from his side. I told him the reason for my distancing was just my menstruation that acted up and i feel super tired nowadays and nothing! *my mind*

  As semester past, Season has changed but my feelings for jimin has still remained the same.
 It hurts like hell watching him posting pictures of his not so cute but so clingy girlfriend. Wonder why would he never posted my pictures, not even on my birthdays.
  Ultimately, i got a new pal. His name is Sam
But no one can take jimin's place. I miss him every single day...our precious memories playing in my damn mind every now and then seeing him around the corner with his hands on his girlfriend's tiny waist. Ouch.
            Please come back to me:(

"Nooo way jimin and samuel were friends" you screamed almost jumping out from your seat as you and your OnlY girl friend were having lunch at your sophia's canteen.
  "That's the reason why jimin has been more distant from me lately!! Oh no."
"There must be something you don't know y/n" she replied.
 As we were passing by the marble stairs...we heard thudd noises as if someone got kicked on their ass real hard. Me and lana almost ran towards them when saw the person getting kicked was actually samuel by jimin. Sam was this close to fight back until i stopped him by coming in between them.
  "Are you guys outta your minds"?
  "What made y'all start a whole war in here"?!!
'Such bulldogs' clenching my teeth at jimin...he was about to speak-    "Both of you get lost" i nearly screeched. The whole corridor became a mess with audiences gossiping and gawking at us like we just did a robbery.
   Even if it takes me to go at jimin first to ask him what beaf he and samuel is having. I couldn't hold it back.I had promised myself not to be near jimin. Now left with no other option.
   Why is it still so hard for me to accept them. I got cheated on indirectly by my very own chum, who chose his fling over his best close friend. After what jimin did to me and my heart, I've had lost all my hopes of getting a trustworthy friend anymore.
 My life's become pathetic how can i not ignore my past still.
  Today is the day. It's gonna be fine i told myself.
The reason why i can't ask this to sam because he's hot-headed person nor i can tell him my previous relation with jimin. He would obviously leave me  like jimin did.
   I saw jimin being all giggly with his girlfriend seating on his lap at the canteen area. Why am i still uncomfortable with this kind of view in front of me.
  "Jimin, can we talk for a moment" i initiated moving close towards their seat. He looked flabbergasted at first and then looking at her girlfriend she nodded and got up from his lap giving me an eye roll. What did i ever do wrong to deserve this.
 He told me he doesn't want to share it because it's too personal and i didn't buy it. At last we had a small talk on life. His last words were "Just stay as far as you can from him" he warned me looking concerned.
      "Yes, yes, i told sam that i like him happy?" I told lana as she always ask me why not i date him already that we both are compatible.
   "You can do this, fighting" she concluded.

  It's been two months since me and samuel have started dating. He's too touchy but I'm definitively not complaining.
     We went on a date at this famous chinese hotel near town. It was all chilled out until someone showed up. Oh it's jimin and his girlfriend coming out from the hotel door looking pissed off and DONE. Jimin never looked this intimidating and enraged in his entire life when he was with me. What must have happened?
I smell something fishy...maybe a bReaKuP
"Yah! Jagi? Let's go inside now" sam pulled me in his embrace forcefully so that my zoned out ass would have a comeback to reality.
 Jimin made an eye contact with me it's like it is filled with pain and regret...jimin saw our every moment until we reached the door to get inside. I saw them walking past in opposite direction of each other. Aish! Why do i feel sorry for him!
"Y/n?" "Yeahh sorry" i replied to Samuel making a puppy face...
He was looking pissed off already by me ugh