I followed him as he went outside with his teary eyes. Hindi ito lumingon o tumigil lamang at agad na dumeretso sa parking kung saan ang kanyang sasakyan.
"Fuck!"
Natigilan ako ng bigla niyang suntukin ang pintuan ng kanyang sasakyan. Hindi nito ininda ang sugat sa kanyang kamay.
"R-Rad...please tama na," I pleaded.
Tumigil ito sa ginagawa at bahagya akong nilingon. Nakita ko ang lungkot at hinanakit sa kanyang mukha lalo na nung tuluyan na siyang umiyak at napasandal sa kanyang sasakyan.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at hindi nagdalawang isip na yakapin siya. He was sobbing so bad and I was suffering from the pain he's been going through. Napaiyak na din ako dahil sa kanyang lagay. I couldn't think of anything but to give him my comfort.
Hindi madali lahat ng mga pinagdaanan niya ngayon. He was almost killed. I was abducted, his mother revealed her relationship before with Cloyd. Eventually he was caught and put to jail. Yet the mere fact that his father died couldn't change the reality that he's now gone.
"Fuck... I never prayed for this to happen, tangina. Bakit sa akin pa!"
Humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya at naramdaman ko din ang pagsabunot sa kanyang buhok. He looks frustrated and tired.
"Nawalan ako ng ama Wendy. I almost lost you too. Kahit na may kasalanan si Dad dito. I know he's still my father" he croaked.
I felt him shaking after. Gusto ko man siyang yakapin ay hindi ko magawa. It's like once I wrap my arms around him will just hurt him more.
"Tanginang lalake 'yon! Hindi lang isa ang dinamay niya sa gulong ito Wendy. He merely killed all of us! Kaya tangina at kulang pa ang pagkabulok niya sa kulungan." he said sobbing.
"Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang pinlano ni Dad. Sana pala hindi na lang ako nabuhay tangina. He said it himself Wendy. He's got a mistake but don't you think the revenge is too much to take?"
"Don't say that you don't deserve to live. You're with it again. Wala ka namang kasalanan. At mas lalong hindi ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat Rad. Everyone here hates only but Cloyd. Don't put all the blame to yourself. You were only a victim. Nandito ako. Nandito pa naman ako para samahanan ka sa lahat Rad. You just need to be strong. Malalampasan pa naman natin 'to hindi ba?" I said.
Unti-unti niyang inangat ang tingin sa akin. With some shed of tears on his eyes. I can feel the hatred and pain at the same time. I pity how hard he went through this situation. But that's what I made sure that he will not be alone in this journey. Kasi nandito ako para sa kanya.
"Nadito pa naman ako sa tabi mo. I won't leave you no matter what. Your pain will always matter to me," I said before I lifted my finger to show him the ring he gave me.
"You see this? You gave this to me. It only means that I have no way out but to be with you in all times. Kasi gano'n kita kamahal Rad. Now that you're weak, I'm gonna be your strength.
I saw how he bit his lower lip. Trying to compose himself before nodding at me.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry,"
Halos hindi ko na maintindihan ang nararamdaman lalo na nung maramdaman ko ang kamay niyang yumayakap sa akin. His face were now buried on my neck. Sobbing as I felt his tears.
"I'm sorry... I was too hurt that all I could think was to put the blame on me."
"I'm sorry if I made you think that way. Masyado akong nasaktan Wendy. But the truth that you're here made me realise that I shouldn't lose my hope, you are my hope."
Chapter 33
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