I was in a dark looking around in a city lights here in my condo.
I used to be like this since that day happened.
anyway I'm always surrounded by the friends I have which is the beer and cigarettes.
everyone think that I'm already move on in my life but yet they didn't know that it was just pretending.
after that event in my life happened I learn to pretend that I'm okay for them to not be worried about me!
specially my mother my kind and loving mother!
I was tired due to work but when I'm here in my condo my tiredness disappear. and it transfer to the everyday emotions that I have when I'm alone.
and that is loneliness and anger!
I look up and because of the light coming from the moon I can see the frames in the wall that consist of pictures the picture of me and him!
my condo is full of pictures and memories of us!
that's why I keep this in dark for me to not be able to see the whole condo.
actually even though I live here and get drunk I still manage to get up early and go before the sun rise came.
I manage to get up at 3am then I prepare my things for work and after a minute I finally go outside then go to the parking lot and drive going to hospital!
where I work in.
I'm a doctor but the wounds in my heart I can't manage to heal it.
until it became scar!
I don't want to be like this but I guess this is the new me so all I can do is to accept it and deal with it!
