𝓔𝓾𝓹𝓱𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓪

bad kind of butterflies

"Natasha there's something i need to tell you." I began.

"I do too. I was hoping you'd come with me as my date for Prom." She looked so happy. It break me if i said no.

"I uhh- well see... I-can't-won't- well." I started shuddering.

She crashed her lips into mine.

What do I do when I love you and want somebody else?
What do I lose if I don't choose and keep it to myself?

"You'll come. Tonight there's a party and just come." She said kissing me again. She got up and left.

Hope was on her way to New York and i promised i would get clean for her.

I got bad, bad, bad kind of butterflies
Like when you got something to hide
Lies, telling you that I'm alright
Tonight, tonight
Bad, bad, butterflies in my chest
There's something I gotta confess
Yes, somebody's stuck in my head
And I, and I

Natasha wants me knee deep in these drugs with her. Its hard to tell if she wants to do the drugs for us to have fun or to kill me. Either way something about Natasha pulled me to her.

I know I said we were friends
And when I said that, I meant it (swear I meant it)
Somewhere between 'not again'
It became more than just a friendship

What do I do when I love you and want somebody else?
What do I lose if I don't choose and keep it to myself?

If i tell Natasha that Hope is coming back she might never forgive me for hurting her.

I got bad, bad, bad kind of butterflies
Like when you got something to hide
Lies, telling you that I'm alright
Tonight, tonight
Bad, bad, butterflies in my chest
There's something I gotta confess
Yes, somebody's stuck in my head
And I, and I

I got up and walked home.

Come here and sit next to me
You tell me, "Baby, just say it" (say it, say it)
Warnin' me, "It's a mistake"
I just know I gotta make it

And I got bad, bad, bad kind of butterflies
Like when you got something to hide
Lies, telling you that I'm alright
Tonight, tonight (alright)
Bad, bad, butterflies in my chest
There's something I gotta confess
Yes, somebody's stuck in my head
And I, and I (in my head, yeah)

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Late that night i was in Natasha's car as we drove to the party.

"Hey Clint." Natasha said as we walk up the stairs.

"To get in you gotta do a hit of ecstasy." Clint said.

"I haven't tried ecstasy before." I whispered to Natasha. She looked at me and game a smile.

"It will kick in 30 to 40 minutes and last 3 to 4 hours." Clint said handing us a dose.

"Bottoms up." Natasha said.

~~~~

20 minutes into the party and i was avoiding everyone with alcohol. Natasha came over to me and pushed me down on the couch.

"Nat! I shouldn't be here!" I yelled over the blaring music.

"Take this. Go to the bathroom. It will all be end soon." She said handing me a pill.

I got up and went to bathroom contemplating if i should do this. I swallowed the pill and drank it down with whisky. I walked out of the bathroom to see the room rotating.

I walked but stumbled onto the wall. Soon i was standing on the roof. I got back on the ground and walked to find Natasha. I took a blunt out someones hand and took a hit.

I walked to Natasha who was swimming in the pool.

"Nat." I said drunkly walked over to her.

"Hey beautiful." She said. Her makeup was a bit stained and her mascara messy.

"What did you give me?" I questioned kneeling to her.

"Something to make you happy baby." She said. She grabbed my arm and pulled me into the pool with her. She kissed me. It was a bitter sweet feeling.

I pulled away and swam up but i could feel the ecstasy kick in. Natasha swam behind me and stuck her hand down my jeans.

"I told you you'd come." She said.

Shit.