In Her Shoes

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When i was eight years of age i did thought highly of myself of what i was going to be in the future i saw my self  very successful had my own place thriving but now 24 years of age still very much dependent breaks my heart everyday looking at my younger self apologizing for what i have become

This is not who i sought to be, my younger brother and sister all look up to me but i have nothing to show them nothing to make them proud of their older sister its heartbreaking and when they ask for things like lunch or pocket money and i cant provide them with such leaves me only hopeless

Just a few days ago my father has gotten sick and we all do not understand what he is suffering from, first it's his legs that aches making him not be able to walk then headaches that make his eyes turn red and get teary,  my father has always been my hero , my protector , someone i did always look up to and even life was not so kind to me did want to persevere like he did . Now seeing my hero all broken his strength leaving him does things to me

My mother is always absent and not that i blame her really no i dont she has been the source of income in our home but arguments have been frequent and when she is actually around is to point fingers at what is wrong with every one from their bone structure ,how the walk and even their children but these days i have choosen silence to everything she has to say because once you point out that its wrong it's the beginning of an argument that will last a week and its very exhausting so yes i choose silence

The one i thought was the love of my life thought i was too much for him he needed his space he said in his words" i dont want to be rude or anything is just you are too much for me always wanting my attention sometimes it makes me think if you ever received any love from your parents"  to say i was livid is understatement but the bastard continued " this is it for me you carry so much garbage its exhausting, i really can't maybe somebody can but absolutely not me " with clenched jaw i just watched him go  did nothing there goes the love of my life.

So when Avalina gives me a call with an offer i cant refuse i thank all gods i have ever known to exist this was a chance at redemption . And  from this moment on i am somebody they  never saw coming ...please laugh with me you might all love me after all.

Author's note
This is my first story in wattpad please be kind 🙏  do not forget to vote and comment it would be lovely to hear you thoughts have good day or night 😊