✿ᴮᵉᵃᵘᵗʸ ᶦˢ ᴾᵃᶦⁿ✿ [βιΙΙdιρ]

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       He flinched when the two finally made eye contact, immidietly moving his gaze somewhere else as he was embarrassed to be caught staring. His face flushed while he wiped any tear stains off his face..he knew having some breakdowns wasn't so new of him, but any time he cried it would be a bit more..rare for that to happen. Ever since he came to Gravity Falls he found himself arguing with himself, he found himself slowly sinking into a pit of darkness and nothingness. He found himself opening up more, but also just pushing everyone away.

       He was such a burden to others.

       Dipper found it a bit strange that he suddenly could make sense of his situation. He found it odd about how he could see and sense his surroundings right after the biggest meltdown he'd ever had. Maybe he just needed to let his emotions flow out for once, maybe the way he bottled things up were slowly killing him. He was slowly killing himself, he knew that, whether physically or mentally. He was slowly dying. The starvation he felt was a bit of a strange feeling to him, it made his stomach hurt and a wave of nausea hit him..and he was slightly dizzy? Probably due to the lack of sleep, he didn't even let his eyes close since last night. He probably was sleeping before this entire situation, when Vincent held him in his arms-

       Oh gosh. That memory just humiliated him.

       The thought of it just made his face heat up even more, he wanted to scream his lungs out. He felt so stupid for acting like that! He wasn't that touch starved was he?-

       The memory of how Vincents touch felt suddenly hit the brunette. Oh..he now could already feel the memorizing sensation he felt when Vincent touched him. A hug from the guy just made him already melt in his arms, he could already feel the desperation of his touch. The small tears he felt after realizing he wasn't getting any physical affection, he couldn't help himself! He didn't know what was suddenly happening to him, his body suddenly felt so weak..so numb. The feeling of hunger and tiredness drifted away, just feeling empty as he could feel his facial expression soften.

       He shook his head. He didn't want his touch starving self affect him so greatly- but..the type of affection the male gave him, gosh..it made him feel loved. It made him feel safe and protected- no! He shouldn't be feeling like this, he barely knew the guy! He couldn't let the stuff he wanted take over himself so easily..he was done. He was done with this entire blanking our, he was done with breaking down every minute inside his mind, he was done with not taking control over himself. The thought of not knowing who he was always terrified him, he never had the choice to be in control over himself..but here he was, he wasn't going to let his wantings just take control-

       But Vincents touch made him feel safe..

       Dipper found himself weaken more, he found his vision become slightly blurry again, he found his body trembling, he felt so weak..he felt like he was being stared at by something- someone. He felt intimidated by the persons gaze, it was Vincent. Of course it was him- no he needed to focus! He couldn't just let his desires affect him- but..he liked the persons touch.

       The brunette pinched himself, trying to see if he was still there, and of course..he was. He winced slightly due to the small pain, but he exhaled after feeling himself flinch.

       He stared at the floor again, he barely realized he was sitting on a couch that stood there on their porch. He never really took the time to get use to his new home, he was really only use to his bedroom. With that, he let his back relax against the cushion behind him. Pyronica finally let go of Masons shoulder, letting the male sink into the couch more. He felt himself curling up on himself, his knees up to his chest as he let his arms wrap around them. His head rested on his knees, staring at whatever was ahead of him.