Nimbus Clouds (Stethoscope Series #1)

Static Clouds

He carry me so I strangled my legs in his waist and hold his nape for support. His member is poking my entrance. Ant is sucking my bare shoulders he literally wanted to leave marks all over my body. Is it his goal to make me look like a frigging polka dots?

The minute I know we are already in his bed and he broke the kiss, fix my disheveled hair and kiss my forehead. He lay down beside me. Niyakap niya ako mula sa likod habang nakahiga kami, dinantay din niya ang isa niyang hita sa akin, completely locking me. He leaned his head on mine. His erected genitalia is poking my back, I want to tell him to go fix it first, but I just love our position now. It felt so warm in his embrace and I can feel his erratic heart beat behind.

"I hope one day you find again your reason to celebrate that day." He kiss my hair and tighten his embrace. "But for now let's sleep."

I didn't respond, but it earned me a smile. A genuine smile.

I intertwine our fingers just wanting to cherish every moment.

His warmth breath tingling my scalp. His smell that lingers through my nose everytime his around. The sound of his heartbeat, his always monotone voice and how warmth his embarce brings. I just feel so safe, I found home in his touch. I found home in him and it is scary.

I just want to cherish this if it means I have to completely dissappear after. It don't have to be this painful. It wasn't suppose to be this painful, but he change the plan. True, days can feel like seconds when you are happy. Fleeting moment like this is keeping me insane.

I never thought that for days I've been able to tell him some secrets. I don't know what spell he take that just makes me put down all my defenses.

Being with Ant had consequences. After all it wasn't bad letting someone break your walls 'coz somehow I felt relieve. Something I have completely forgotten to feel for years. Opening to him about my secrets and hearing his is so surreal.

Like him being beside me today, so surreal.

Gumalaw ako at iniba ang pwesto para makita ang mukha niya. He moved a bit, but still holding me between his arms. He look so peaceful when sleeping. I must say that it is indeed a beautiful view.

I touch his face. I touch his nose, eyes, forehead and lips basically, tracing his face. Memorizing how he looks, not wanting to forget him. Natatakot ako na baka makalimutan ko at pagsisihan ko ang araw na ito 'pag hindi ko sinaulo ang mukha niya, ang amoy niya, ang mga hawak niya. Lahat.

I cupped his face when a single tear leave my eye. I kiss Ant's sternum and burried my face in his chest and fell asleep.

We are still laying in his bed, but this time we are reading a book. Nakahiga ako sa braso niya my hands laying in his chest while he is holding the book para mabasa naming dalawa. He said it is his favorite book. A Walk To Remember by Nicolas Sparks is too dramatic for him, I thought.

Our other hands are intertwined and we flipped the page together. He is drawing circles on my palm that sends me shivers.

"I've read this book tons of times, but never got the chance to finish it." He said while we are in the middle of reading. It is the moment while they're walking and Jaime already confess that she have Leukemia. Cancer of the Blood really sucks!

Binaba ko ang kamay niyang may hawak ng libro. I held his face to look at me. "Why?"

"I don't have the courage." He shock his head. "I once heard my classmates talking about it and based on them it has a sad ending. And I don't want to know how. I just hate the thought that things have to end." He is smelling my hair when his phone rang. "I have to take this." I nodded as an approval. He left the room and answered the phone.