Searching For You

Chapter 23: Dreaming And Waking

Rey's POV:

I just woke up from a vicious nightmare screaming in terror. It had seemed so real as if I could physically feel everything that had happened to me. In the nightmare, I had gotten kidnapped and because of that, I lost the baby. Then there was a little girl's voice, which reminded me so much of the little one I met that wore gray robes the night Ben came back, saying in a pleading tone "It's not your fault mommy! Please don't cry! We'll meet again one day! You'll see it! I told daddy the same thing!" I shook uncontrollably under the covers from the nightmare; I tried desperately to regain control over my breathing. I felt the bond activate and panic more, I did not want to explain any of this to Ben and cause him unnecessary worry. He was by my side on the bed and as I turned to him with my horror-struck face, I'm instantly pulled into his embrace. I cry into his shoulder as he whispers sweet nothings to me. Once I had calmed down enough I laid completely still with my head in his chest, I wanted nothing more than to stay like this forever. "Rey looked at me." I reluctantly did as he asked, wondering what he was going to say next. He had a soft but stern face as he spoke, "I would never let any harm come to you or the baby am I clear?" He knew; he already knew before I said a single thing. Sometimes I forget how deep our dyad bond goes. "But Ben, what about the little girl and what she said? What if it was not dreamed but a vision?" I start to panic yet again. "Rey, stop!" His voice raised a little bit, just enough to stop my oncoming panic attack. "It was a bad dream, that's all it was. I am here now and as long as I'm breathing I won't let anything happen. You and our child are my world and if something were to happen, I would make it right. For you, I would make everything right. I love you, Rey." I had tears in my eyes. "I love you too Ben. I wouldn't let anything happen to the baby or to you." We kissed. It was a tender kiss, one that made me love him more. We stayed in each other's arms until the sun was just starting to rise. Eventually, we let go of each other because I wanted to go meditate on the balcony. We said our goodbyes with a kiss; Ben insisted on it.

Ben's POV:

I wake up from a dead sleep due to the dream I just experienced from Rey's point of view. My heart starts racing and my muscles going tense instantly. A severe sense of fear and worry mixed with anxiety washes over me, it's unlike anything I have ever experienced before. These were not only my feelings but they were intertwined with Rey's as well. I activate the bond only to see Rey shaking like a leaf with a sound escaping her tiny frame that shouldn't be possible. She's on the verge of one of the worst panic attacks I have ever seen. I rush to her side as fast as I can and curse under my breath for not being able to get to her faster. I practically pounce on to the bed and wrap my arms around her small shaking frame. I squeeze her tight and whisper sweet nothings to her. 'I wish I could take this all away from her'. She rests her head on my right shoulder as she continues to cry into it. I hate seeing her like this, my heart breaks at the sight of it. I continue to whisper sweet nothings to her and gently rock her as I start to let my true emotions show. Once she was starting to calm down, I can sense her worry about approaching me about the topic. That's my girl. Always way more worried about everyone else too much, that she doesn't even allow herself time to fully process anything. As I am crying into her sweet-smelling hair, I remind myself how much I need to be there for her right now. "Rey, look at me." I demand as I attempt to pull myself together. She did, her eyes were red and glassy from crying. "I would never let any harm come to you or the baby am I clear!" I say slightly panicky. She nodded her head in agreement and I let out a sigh of relief when I feel her panic start to slowly subsidize. "But Ben, what about the little girl and what she said? What if it was not dreamed but a vision?" She begins to whimper. There was always a good chance that this was a vision; however, that's the last thing I need Rey believing right now, as fragile as she is at the moment. The idea of there being any chances of losing the baby was too much for me even to handle let alone her. "Rey, stop!" I demand, I didn't mean to raise my voice but it got her attention and kept her from spiraling farther. "It was a bad dream, that's all it was. I am here now and as long as I'm breathing I won't let anything happen. You and our child are my world and if something were to happen, I would make it right. For you, I would make everything right. I love you, Rey." She had tears in her eyes again but there was love too. "I love you too Ben. I wouldn't let anything happen to the baby or to you." I knew she meant it, the moment those sweet words left her mouth. We were both equal in power of the force and would to any length to protect one another and those we loved. I kissed her and she kissed me back, I felt our bond deepen even more than it already was, if that was even possible. We held each other until the sun started to rise. "I want to meditate for a while," Rey said. "Do you have too?" I said, smiling down at her and tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. "Yes. I want to get my thoughts together before I get Finn. I'm teaching him how to enter people's minds and how to block his own thoughts today." I nodded at her explanation even though I am internally protesting the idea of her leaving my side. "Alright, but I insist on a goodbye kiss." She giggled and kissed me then the bond broke.